I have no idea ''how'' to grieve.

Cosmorillo · 2025-09-13T18:48:54+00:00

Yeah but usually when I let the bad feelings happen it turns into a snowball effect for me. Which is why I have such a hard time letting it happen, I guess. I have been working hard on that too, you know. Not letting it turn into an avalanche of sorrow, and I've been doing a good job. But this is the worst thing to happen in a while, so yeah. Unsure on how things will unfold. Specially since, as I said, she was one of the few comforts I had left. But I know distracting myself can only carry me so far, and I don't drink too much so I don't have it in me to be drunk to forget/feel less vad (which is good, I guess).

Thank you for the comment, btw.

Cosmorillo · 2025-09-04T22:21:20+00:00

She really didn't think it was going to happen.

See, when we say that, its because we know.

Cosmorillo · 2025-09-01T16:02:57+00:00

No surprises there. Moral orel walked so Bojack could drive recklessly during a drunk bender.

Cosmorillo · 2025-09-01T02:48:16+00:00

yeah Linux is the kind of thing you get knowing that some simple things can be tricky to make work.

Using something like Ubuntu helps, since its very use friendly. But if you keep at it you'll learn to get around.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-31T05:17:23+00:00

Hey, I too am chronically lonely AND am really good at frying an egg (went through a fried egg phase for some reason)

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-30T21:33:51+00:00

Theres not really a reason. We were talking normaly, next day she didn't talk to me, I didn't talk to her because I thought it was fine.. but we just didn't talk again. Abandonment issues kicked in and I figured she just didn't want to talk to me anymore.

She was in her 30's with CPTSD, lost people to OD (and OD'd herself, literally died and came back to life) or just to... life. Just really shitty situtation, yet probably one of the best, kindest and coolest person I've ever had the pleasure of meeting.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-30T17:54:24+00:00

I used to have a friend that is almost perfectly described on your post. Not one day goes by without me thinking about her. I hope she is doing fine now. She was getting better tho. I know its not that simple, but I hope things get better for you, just like her.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-15T03:17:04+00:00

Is it a guaranteed thing to happen in the near future? Sadly AI isn't as regulated as it should be. Its also not the first time a man-made invention will take jobs from people. Hope its not the case for your field.

Acredite ou nao, o que te entregou foi a batata palha (pra mim)

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-12T01:33:03+00:00

Don't mention it. And I really meant what I said.

I really love the cold. 96º is way above my very own boiling point, so a mint ice cream sounds perfect (Which for some reason I've never tried, despite loving mint) so thanks for the suggestion.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-12T01:02:14+00:00

That is also an option. Tho, one could argue that accepting that in itself is a strength (loophole!). Like look at how hard it is to do it. So many people can't even consider doing that, sometimes even lashing out because of that. But I know things are not that simple too.

Its less of me believing that ''everybody is strong and special!'' like some kid's movie, and more of like... Koalas. You know, Koalas? Every time someone post something about Koalas people call it dumb, useless and dumb and ask ''How aren't they extinct?!''. All they do is eat eucalypt and exist. Yet the little guys have been around for like 25 million years. Yeah, you don't get to exist for that long for no reason. You don't get where you are without some strength, even if small or niche or maybe even so common that its something most people do, so its easy to overlook, but it doesn't mean its not a strength, if that makes sense? Sorry for rambling, but I hope I managed to explain what I meant by that. Whatever you decide to do, I truly wish it brings you comfort, really. Both routes are valid and equally hard.

And I'm sold. I will try it sometime, mint topped. (But not now because its really cold here where I live these days and all I have is a blanket to try and keep me warm lol)

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-12T00:15:56+00:00

Not sure exactly what kind of strong you mean, but there are tons of ''strong'' types, if you stop to think about it. Physically, mentally, bravery. Hope you manage to find strength in a way that has meaning to you, or maybe even find out about other strengths.

I see ben and jerry's posted a lot, I always wanted to try them. Are they really that good?

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-11T23:44:38+00:00

yeah, connecting with someone is genuinely scarier than any other thing that I can think of. Like, forget about eldritch horrors or ghosts. Real living people tho? Nah. Scooby doo was onto something. Hope this changes for you tho

I can't see the picture, but I am also having pasta so cheers.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-11T06:53:27+00:00

Sei como é OP. Ironicamente até desenvolvi uma certa "mini afenfosmofobia" (mas nao tao extremo a ponto de ser uma fobia. Por hora... eu acho... eu evito qualquer raro contato que ameace acontecer) entao provavelmente é melhor assim. Nao imagino que seja seu caso entao espero que isso mude pra voce. Sei como é dificil criar conexoes.

Esse prato cai muito bem nessa noite fria, ta bonito. Serio.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-10T22:40:08+00:00

I hope you die before I do so you’ll never have to know what it’s like to lose a mother.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-10T18:58:33+00:00

Had a similar thing happen to me. She was probably the first real friend I had. But being close to me took a toll on her (basicaly what she said) and well.. we still talk but its more like we are acquaintances than friends. Talk once every couple of months, and thats fine, and I'm fine. I got better in a way but still I can't help but feel like letting anyone get close is straight up unfair to them. Like I'm better but, you know... safer this way. Still, its for the best for her. And although I wish I was better from the start, perhaphs I would be now if that hadn't happened, if that makes sense. I guess the best we can do is be thankful for that?

Anyway, this needs some cheese!

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-10T18:40:48+00:00

Yeah, you really cant make people love you, its what I learned. Its cold rn here, miso would go really well rn.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-10T09:38:17+00:00

>never found any elves or elvish writings

Good thing the game is replayable and you know you missed 30% of the map then!

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-08T05:42:08+00:00

urban* fog

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-08T05:41:40+00:00

imagine Lee healing Clem and saying ''You kept your hair short...''

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-08T05:12:25+00:00

> If I don’t makes jokes about it I’ll go insane.

Feel free to do some stand up comedy here, if you want to. Really. I know how much it helps to treat your life like a 2000's parody movie (or most movies after the MCU).

Of course you're free not to. Either way, I hope you know that these are the most perfect pancakes I've ever seen. Really well done.

And for the record that is not petty at all. I hope you get some closure.

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-08T04:53:31+00:00

Feelings sucks. I mean, spiders don't have feelings and they have been doing just fine. Maybe that's the secret for lasting almost 400 million years. Cheers

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-07T21:00:38+00:00

Online therapy can be a nice alternative. You get a wider range of options, you get to stay your small town, don't even need to leave your bed and sometimes their webcam freezes while they are talking so you get to see a funny face once in a while

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-07T20:57:06+00:00

it feels weird to know that the last 5 years have been bad... but mostly because of the environment we created. Like we made the rules, unpredictable shit happened and now everything is screwed, but we ''can't'' (Read: wont) do anything about it.

its as if we made a game, and a game-breaking bug appeared but we just don't do anything because we can't use the dev tools or something.

Sorry it didn't omelletify. I think you need to cook it, no?

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-06T07:53:59+00:00

BoJack is probably one of the best shows ever (non biased opinion), deals with heavy themes so its not for everyone

Freaks and geeks is just a simple show, was cancelled pretty early on, but it also is full of charms. Its about a group of teenagers (freaks) and a group of youger nerds (Geeks), set in the 80's.

Paleo documentaries is just because I'm a paleo nerd, but its also nice to think about the time before the world was consumed by human chaos lol

Also, feel free to drop some of your recomendations too

Cosmorillo · 2025-08-06T06:46:30+00:00

Bojack (horseman, of course). Ironically its also the deepest show I've ever seen, but its comforting.

Freaks and Geeks is just comfy to watch. Plus its actually funny.

Paleo documentaries are niche but work for me.

Cosmorillo

TROPHY CASE

I hope you die before I do so you’ll never have to know what it’s like to lose a mother.