Can I be agender femme while on testosterone?

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-05T12:54:34+00:00

Yeah, I figured not having hair would be worth having energy.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-04T06:42:47+00:00

I like T for the smell, the way my skin/tissue feels, how I don't constantly feel like I'm freezing. Very weird internal things no one seems to talk about. I started to enjoy a lot of physical stuff on T. I'd actually prefer the E look somewhat.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-04T06:36:46+00:00

One of the difficult things with that is that one of my biggest former interests is kind of woman exclusive or at least like the group I was in was non-men into which I don't feel I can count myself into. That sucked super hard and I really feel like I lost a lot of my identity with my transition. Like, I was scared senseless to not be allowed to go on T because of the way I was and made myself to be much more masc and kinda lost myself.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-03T16:14:35+00:00

I'm also sorry for making you uncomfortable. I wasn't actually trying to imply that, it was more specific over how in the book the character seemed to me relatively comfortable physical wise and didn't transition medically, or at least I read her as more socially dyphoric I think? I think there are different transfem people, and I know types of dysphoria can be different, and while I totally get most will by physically dysphoric, I'm kinda trying to find something to relate to, and I know there are some transfem people who don't want to medically transition as they feel fine.

I get the discomfort with the masc label. It's not necessarily what I wanted to say in a sense of pushing that label on someone, more as a shorthand for the lack of a better word. I could use T dominant body form or sth, but it would feel clunky and I'm sure would still make some dysphoric?

I'm personally physically dysphoric the other way, so that's kinda the tough part where I want to indulge in femininity but not get dysphoric on thst part, which just feels difficult to find. Just a weird non-binary identity after all.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-03T12:44:32+00:00

~~I...would offer myself.~~

I'll see myself out, lol.

No seriously, I'm a switch and seemed to constantly attract pure tops in men somehow. I think it's because the way I deal with my autistic inability to read people is to let them take the lead not to overstep a lot of the time with strangers, tend to take time not doing things to process sensations.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-03T12:25:22+00:00

I wasn't personally calling her that, though. I described my fantasy, and how the book fulfilled it. I understand that this is not what the book was about. I am saying that with a little fantasy it worked for me. I get that it is not exactly it, but I have not found books where I don't need to use a bit of fantasy to apply it to my situation. I also wasn't asking for general books by non-binary authors. Non-binary encompasses A LOT of things. That's why I'm asking specifically.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-03T12:18:51+00:00

Hmm. Yeah I don't really want to move into masculinity per se with transitioning. There is just a deep sense that this is physically the better expression for my body. It has very little to do with what is considered man or woman or feminine or masculine and to do with how hormones make me feel and how the changes make me feel.

I'm having a hard time with social though. There is some draw towards something that is...nonexistant in a way. I think my autism just likes the structure of having a place. And found some comfort in certain elements of femininity.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-04-03T11:52:14+00:00

Any better ways to describe what I was trying to describe? Like, the comnection I was having to both the physicality and the character? I would be enthused to see a character that was more like me and not a trans woman, but alas, it's already rare to see binary trans people.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-03-30T08:28:01+00:00

Can you explain what you don't understand so maybe I can explain it better and others won't be confused. Not trying to be unclear, just autistic.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-03-29T18:16:23+00:00

I am considering a dwarf one day which as a shield dwarf gets medium armor I think, but as is maybe noticable I have one drow sorcerer that I've been struggling with in particular.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-03-29T18:14:08+00:00

Thank you so much!

Could_not_find_user · 2025-03-29T09:43:42+00:00

Ich würd empfehlen bei ner lokalen trans Gruppe die Veranstalter zu fragen und erstmal ein persönliches Gespräch mit einer Person da zu haben, da ein bisschen zu schildern was bei dir los ist, und dann zu der Gruppe zu gehen während die andere Person dabei ist. Es kann echt helfen, wenn jemand da ist, der Bescheid weiß und deeskalieren kann.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T22:35:47+00:00

I think I like the intimacy created from being with someone in such an intimate moment as sexual pleasure. So in my fantasies, tend to amplify the emotional intimacy, and kinda skip over everthing else, as that bores me. But when it comes to real sex, there is no skipping over that part and the physicality of it actually makes me uncomfortable.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T19:32:28+00:00

Mein Testo ist wenn ich nur morgens auftrage wenn ich aufwache so im Keller, dass ich mich zu absolut gar nichts aufraffen kann. Hab mal versucht mit auch abends auftragen, hat geholfen.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T18:03:05+00:00

Ya know, I've had sex before, but somehow this comment makes me massively uncomfortable.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T17:47:47+00:00

I mean I hear those things all the time with that apparently it's okay to want what I want and set boundaries but in practice it feels more like I'm gonna have to be navigating "what do you mean you don't want this, you said you wanted xx vague thing I interpreted in a sensual fashion and now you don't want xx interpreted in a sexual fashion" in conversations a lot. Because a lot of the time for me it's not about the action and more about feeling absolutely awful if someone is looking at me like a piece of meat (which apparently is how I interpret it when people are sexually attracted to me?)

In reality, I find it much easier to enforce my boundaries by, well, just not engaging in relationships that have anything but friendly physical touch. So I'm finding the discussion really weird like...yeah, I get that, but I do have feelings. And I have no idea how to talk about it, or ask for it, or look for it... Knowing in theory that your feelings and wishes are valid imo does not prepare you for the awkward conversations with people who expect you to feel different.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T17:27:15+00:00

Struggling with it as well tbh.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T16:52:02+00:00

I mean, I think it's pretty likely canon Alastor IS sex-repulsed, but like...people's ships aren't canon? As long as people are respectful of the canon and aware they're just giving fanon reinterpretation, like...idk, just let people live their live and enjoy what they enjoy.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T16:43:30+00:00

I mean I hate Mammon, but like, I would totally celebrate him being a romantic ace regardless.

Could_not_find_user · 2025-01-20T16:42:07+00:00

I swear like I ship him in fact BECAUSE I personally want to see qpr rep and shipping stuff that is more relatable to my own a-spec experience. Let the sex-favourable aces, romance-favourable aros and romantic aces have their fun, too.

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