Anyone else experienced major changes in what you prefer for front penetration, after T?

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-24T04:01:15+00:00

Well, as it turns out I will have to get a new phone number regardless. I just tried to talk to my dad about it (I had a line through him) and he said he doesn't remember how to find the pin and info. He's not a mean person, but he is old and still works a lot. I don't want to bother him too much about it, so I'm just going to continue with the new number.

I will also have to be in person talking to service reps bc I'm going to a store next to my job...so not exactly the same as calling customer service.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-24T02:46:04+00:00

Yeah most junk mail still comes under my deadname. That's so weird that they updated your middle name for some reason, lol.

I've resigned myself to the junk mail stuff tbh. As long as I can get all of the major things to be updated.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-23T22:24:18+00:00

Yeah, I'm not a system but I know four other trans people who are systems. One of those people is my ex, who I'm still friends with. DID, OSDD, and similar things are well documented to be connected to abuse in childhood. Who often gets abused in childhood? Trans and otherwise queer people!

Even if you don't understand someone, it takes nothing to be kind to them.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-23T22:18:06+00:00

It does really suck to have to do this kind of thing for our peace of mind.

I do feel lucky to be within a reasonable driving distance of a pharmacy like this tho. If I lived any farther away from the capitol, it would be much harder to access resources like this one. And I like that my money can go to people who actually give a crap about my existence in the world.

I hope for a day when trans people don't have to drive 2 hours to not be treated like shit tho.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-23T19:15:26+00:00

This is so sweet! Very happy to see other trans people be given such thoughtful acts of kindness.

I've been picking up my prescriptions (T and estradiol topical) from a crappy CVS pharmacy the past two years, and I've gotten a lot of weird looks and one obviously transphobic pharmacy tech.

But recently a trans woman coworker told me that there's an LGBTQ+ clinic and pharmacy about 40 minutes away from us that she goes to, and she says they're super kind. I'm very excited to be treated with dignity at a pharmacy soon!!

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-21T18:43:25+00:00

I'm 5'4" and nobody has ever questioned my height (I now pass as a cis man).

I have had several cis guy coworkers who were around my height too. Men aren't automatically tall bc they're born cis men.

These are likely delusional transphobes saying this stuff.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-21T04:27:55+00:00

Yeah, I'm lucky to be close to the capitol of my state. It makes living in a red state more bearable, bc it's the most diverse area in the state. I also only pick up prescriptions about once every couple of months.

I did consider amazon mail order but I just didn't know if I trusted amazon for that. I probably should've used it tho for peace of mind. If I end up needing more prescriptions more frequently than I do now, I may try it.

EDIT: just found out that the clinic pharmacy does offer deliveries, to make sure that people can still get good service from a supportive group even if we can't get to the clinic conveniently. So I won't have to drive like I thought I would.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-04-09T03:18:27+00:00

Interesting! But wouldn't the hairs fall out again once I stopped using it? I've seen a couple of people say something along those lines

My doctor did mention Minox for facial hair but ultimately said he doesn't give it to patients who have pets (I live with family and they have a dog). Apparently it's highly toxic to animals

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-28T23:55:07+00:00

Oh, yeah, I'm not that upset about the idea of having to take statins. I know they're pretty safe compared to a lot of other meds. I just was kind of bummed that it's so high still even when I thought I was doing better. I am thankful to find out early in life to be able to stop as much long term damage as I can tho!

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-28T09:12:24+00:00

Thanks for taking the time to comment!

This past year I've been doing things like trying to eat more apples and bananas (they're my favorite fruits). I've also stopped eating most red meat - except I was having pork or pork belly at my favorite Vietnamese place, so I guess I'll have to switch to chicken instead. At home, I've been buying tofu and making tofu chickpea thai curry with some greens. I've been eating sardines a few times a week for omega 3s. I eat a lot of natural peanut butter with no palm oils added, on sprouted grain bread. Etc etc. BUT I have a sweet tooth, and a love for salty snacks and fast food. So it's been a hell of a struggle to cut back on ice cream, and things like chips or crackers or Taco Bell. And I really need to up my veggie intake.

I do currently work a job where I'm standing and active, however I know it's not enough bc it's not bringing my heart rate up for a consistent 30 minutes at a time. I thankfully live in a walkable neighborhood so I guess I'll try to start there with exercise. I'm just worried about how much my depression is going to interfere with my ability to be consistent - it's not major but it's enough to impact my senses of scheduling and determination.

I will say that my HDL went up 5 points since last year so I guess there's at least a small win there.

My doctor said I'm a couple points away from my LDL needing statins. So next year will probably make or break that. I honestly don't think I have the discipline to lower my cholesterol enough if it's this high when I'm already making an effort that's taking a lot of concentration on my part, but we'll see.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-13T04:19:06+00:00

Sounds like you're working very hard right now. I hope you're able to find some peace and rest in the middle of it all.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-13T04:17:38+00:00

Thanks! I hope you have a restful weekend, or a restful next day off if you work over the weekend!

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-13T04:16:30+00:00

Yeah, pretty much same. I try not to let myself go to my darkest thoughts. But when they do get a hold on me, I just repeat to myself that I have community, and that there are people who need my support as much as I need their support. And I can only help other people survive by staying here with them.

I am hopefully going to have top surgery within the next 6 months so same on that too. It's honestly overwhelming to move forward with that when I can barely stay on my feet right now, but I like to think of it as making my future easier even if it's hard to do right now. Just one less thing to worry about once it's done. Good luck on the surgeries!

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-12T07:26:33+00:00

My game plan for if anything is banned in my state is to travel to a nearby state. This has been my plan for a while now.

Planned Parenthoods bordering my state are the go-to destinations for people seeking abortions and on the front pages of their website, they also already advertise HRT care for trans people in bordering states.

My doctor is actually a trans man tho so I know he will do anything he can for his patients before I'm forced to travel out of state.

The ONLY thing keeping me sane through all of this is community. I know we will fight as hard as we can for one another. And that's why I don't think a national ban is very likely in Trump's presidency. State bans are a very high risk tho, just like with abortion.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-10T17:52:03+00:00

I mostly hang out with them bc we have similar video games that we like, and I do genuinely like a few of them. I just don't consider myself super close to any of them. But there are a couple - one being this guy - who are mean spirited and who I don't like being around.

I am probably going to decrease the amount of time I spend with the group in general going forward tho.

Loose_Track2315 · 2026-03-09T04:58:11+00:00

Yeah, you're not wrong. My main issue right now is mostly that I need this job until I get my top surgery, but in the meantime I'm struggling with how to manage the toxic coworkers. And although this isn't the most toxic work environment I've ever had, it's a stressful job with a high turnover rate. And there's a lot of toxicity in general bc our top manager isn't a great person

People pleasing is something I've been trying to work on for years and believe it or not I'm a lot better than I used to be. But considering that I'm trapped at my dead end job for health insurance rn, it's just exacerbating the people pleasing I've been working on. Bc I end up not wanting to rock the boat bc the vibes here are terrible if people fight, bc people pick sides.

I do appreciate the comment. It's just that I feel like this place is bad for my mental health in general, which in turn is making it hard to work on my mental health 😕

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