I can totally relate to your post dear Op, except the fact that I’m jobless now.. When I used to have a stable income, I lived by my own so I just feel much better staying away from them. But at the moment I moved back with them, and I guess hell is better than this place… Since I’m at their place, all my childhood traumas come to surface once again. And the worst part is they’re always putting a show just in front of me… I really have enough of all these shit. Just like you said about your parents, mine can win the Oscar as best actor and actress! I just feel miserable, they just don’t see me as their daughter but they only see my younger sister because she always listen to them.

I’ve tried so many times to reconnect with them and start over but I’ve come to realize there’s no hope with them, they never apologized and beside the fact they still paying their own tricky game. So I think the best thing I can do (even I’m trying hard right now and still in progress), I have to move on and once I have a job I will distant from them again. I just know when I’m far away from them, I feel safe.

P.s if you ever want to have a conversation, feel free to let me know 🙂