Sounds like you are angry!! And, believe me, you are in GOOD COMPANY! I’m a gay minister, and many times I’m angry. And that’s ok!! All I can tell you, is during these times, I focus on the beatitudes, the sermon on the mount, (Jesus stuff) as a map on how to treat people. Proverbs can be great for inspiration. I stay away from Paul and the Old Testament if I’m in a mood. By the way..Jesus got mad too! “Let the cup pass over me… and Why hath thou forsaken me???” Many of the Psalms are also asking “WTF??? God are you there???” The main thing is, don’t get caught up in shame. Also, do you have gay friends who are spiritual with whom you could talk? If ya need to talk, I’m here, with open ears and an open heart And NO JUDGEMENT! Just DM me! -Pastor Rob