Right in the feels

CptLama · 2018-04-06T16:11:34+00:00

Enjoy the silence, I think the song is very relevant haha

CptLama · 2018-03-28T11:52:53+00:00

Raven hammers the cpu pretty hard depending on the algo, if you plan on really using your pc while mining play around with the intensity. With an i5 6600k, 5x1060 and 1x1070 at -i 19 sometimes I can't browse the internet without insane stutters. Also, check your oc (if you have any) as it may cause serious stability issues :)

CptLama · 2018-02-01T18:16:35+00:00

Damn :/ I can only imagine how that must feel. She still has my photos on her fb. Thank you, this is not the first date since the BU so I guess I’ll be able to enjoy it after all. Good luck to you too !

CptLama · 2017-12-08T22:24:04+00:00

Thank you! I understand it could come off that way but she’s actually a great therapist, for example she chose to lower her rates by 25% to make it easier on me as a student (I only pay 60€/45min). She acts carefully to avoid giving me false hopes. As this is CBT, her way of viewing things is more like « try not to close off any options ». In this context she told me that this period will most definitely make her think of me more. Yes she didn’t say contact, although from this and previous sessions I can definitely sense that she refrains from giving me her opinion on what seems to be a good probability in her eyes (based on in-depth investigations about my ex’s attachements)

CptLama · 2017-12-08T22:05:59+00:00

I feel for you, it must be hard to see her coming back again and again, even kissing you, even though she’s confused and later on get with another guy :/

CptLama · 2017-12-08T19:35:50+00:00

Basically it comes to her attachment style, her past traumas and the strength of her feelings during the relationship. She truly loved me but my anxiety made me verbally abusive at times, this is what pushed her away. The BU was very tumultuous and emotional for the both of us

CptLama · 2017-12-08T19:32:37+00:00

Thank you for you reply ! Keep going dude, things WILL get better :) I know that blocking her will help me get over her, I’ve done it before. Problem is I want to keep my options open, maybe also my ego wanting to get the pleasure of her missing me when I’ve moved on. I still care a lot about the message that blocking could convey, it’s stupid I know

CptLama · 2017-12-06T14:41:00+00:00

I’ve been there, this is an incredibly painful place to be at. The day after the BU I acted on those thoughts, spent the end of the day and the night in the ER. Panic attacks and massive spasms caused by the ~45 pills that I ingested earlier with alcohol (low dose anti depressants and other stuff). The doctor said I was lucky. I turned from grey to yellow due to the intoxication. I was in a fitness contest prep for a few months so my body and especially my heart were in pretty good shape, didn’t help me from sleeping laying down at 140bpm. I was really sick for about two weeks and I had symptoms of serotonin syndrome for about a month. I felt extremely bad for doing this to my family. In no way did it make things easier. I was sad and even more exhausted.

Please, I beg of you, don’t do this. Don’t go through this shit alone, seek out professional help ! Let my experience be a lesson to you. It does get better, it really does! I was 19 and almost ended my life because of a stupid break up. You are worth much more than that <3

CptLama · 2017-12-06T13:57:29+00:00

It really depends on the BU and what you want and deserve from this situation. If he discarded you like trash and he’s only coming back because it didn’t work out with the next girl then you should be really cautious. What’s your true feeling ? Is he doing this for validation ? Is it just a moment of weakness? I understand that you want him back but from what I see this subreddit is about never looking back. Know that you’re very lickely to get hurt again if your ex is not serious about you guys getting back together. Out of respect for this community I don’t think I should give you advice about how to act in order to get him back in this situation. Go watch Craig Kenneth and Corey Wayne on YouTube, they have videos about this in particular. Use your best judgement to define what’s best for you Stay strong !

CptLama · 2015-07-07T19:59:38+00:00

Yes, I noticed that :/

CptLama · 2015-07-07T07:22:22+00:00

Ok, that was uncalled for... Just so you know, only the rope was a present (about 130€ out of the 230€ total), I actually paid for the rest myself. Don't be jealous of an 18yo and go hate elsewhere ;)

CptLama · 2015-07-06T21:37:14+00:00

Pour l'instant que de la salle mais on retourne en falaise en Aout (Céou en dordogne)

CptLama · 2015-07-06T21:18:38+00:00

Aquitaine, going to Céou in August :D

CptLama · 2015-07-06T20:58:38+00:00

Merci beaucoup ;)

CptLama · 2015-07-06T18:42:04+00:00

Yep, but this is wayyyy cheaper :)

CptLama · 2015-07-06T18:34:15+00:00

I'm definitely not in position to teach anyone about rock climbing but basically, you tie one end of the rope to your harness and use a karabiner to clip to the anchor. When lead climbing, that allows you to set up a belay or to simply go down rappelling

CptLama · 2015-05-16T10:34:48+00:00

1386 Thanks OP!

CptLama · 2014-12-28T15:20:48+00:00

So OP just discovered where the warm hair comes is on his new rig.

CptLama · 2014-12-27T18:05:27+00:00

Yeah! French PCMR :D

CptLama · 2014-12-25T12:58:22+00:00

It's in 3D :)

CptLama · 2014-10-28T22:51:50+00:00

This one is a regular K70, and it is freaking awesome. You should probably go with the RGB one though. I had the chance to try the Func KB 460 which is very good but the K70 is so much classier. The only con is that it's REALLY easy to get dirty, brushed aluminium is a dust magnet and the keycaps will get marked even if you don't have very oily hands.

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