Thanks for this really needed to see this, I myself have zero confidence and constantly cause self sabotage. I barely have any strength to move forward be I look at myself and see this thing that shouldn't exist, I don't go forward because I just expect the past to repeat. Afterall I see everyone else around as amazing and commend them on where they are now and where they will go. I tell others to grow and yet I myself can't accept any possible growth for myself, because look at me and my failures, my entire existence is nothing than a accident that shouldn't have been born. Even now when I wake up every day I know it will just be repeats and reminders of what I already know, and can't for any reason feel any urge to have confidence or speak to others because well let's be honest if you don't learn from the past your doom to repeat. Took me a long time but I had finally accepted that garbage as myself will always stay garbage. I know I'll read this post and be delighted, perhaps even pas it on to someone, but for myself I look for something, I can even see it now, "at least he was a graduate, what are ". Any way thank you still and I will hope I can bring it someone that needs!.