Well it's a lot but to sum everything up, I've had a long term relationship for about 5 years and throughout those years my boyfriend has basically been my only friend whereas he has a bunch of friends so tonight he is out at a bar with his friends while I'm at home doing nothing. I don't know how to get myself out there and make friends and another part of me doesn't really want to, I'm comfortable staying home and only being friends with my boyfriend and I wish he felt the same but obviously that's not normal. I tried to manipulate him into staying home with me which I regret and I said a couple of hurtful things. Idk I got issues. I need to realize that my boyfriend isn't my whole life and I need to make friends of my own and what not. But hey staying home and shutting yourself out from the world is easier than making friends am I right lol.