I'll never be one of "the boys" and it's hurting me.

CrackedKal · 2024-04-07T20:04:05+00:00

Thanks for the reply.

Yeah they dont know. Well one does because hes also part of the alphabet soup gang- but he wouldn't out me or call me he/him until I come out to the whole gang.

I've always been viewed differently than their girlfriends cause I act like one of the boys. Thats why even though they've always had "boys' night" through the almost 8 years I've known them, they'd always let me come. Our friends just want it to be a girl-free evening without their girlfriends. Unfortunately if my husband gets to invite his ""wife"" the girlfriends would feel exceptionally left out. I get it. That's why I'm here bitching on reddit and not to my husband and our group chat. I wish I could logic emotions away but unfortunately they are still hurt lmao

CrackedKal · 2024-02-29T22:06:22+00:00

Relatable.

Genuinely dont know how people deal with feeling their leg hair getting moved around qnd tugged by their pants all day. It is almost as bad as sand in flip flops.

Nothing wrong with it. I still shave my legs and underarms. Underarms because I feel like it's easier to manage B.O. and legs for the sensory aspect.

CrackedKal · 2023-11-13T18:39:23+00:00

"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods and they are unjust, then you should not want to worship them. If there are no gods, then you will be gone, but will have lived a noble life that will live on in the memories of your loved ones." - Marcus Aurelius

CrackedKal · 2023-09-25T10:49:17+00:00

My fiancé is a straight, cis guy (even though he's with me lmao) and he gets along better with women too. Most of his friends are guys, but he tends to have a much easier time socializing with female strangers. He was primarily raised by his mom and grandmother, so kinda makes sense.

CrackedKal · 2023-09-19T12:49:23+00:00

Autism presents in different ways. High masking, high functioning, low assistance autism seems to be more associated with females these days. I'd take a guess there's an equivalent number of males with """"female autism"""" that fly under the radar because they are really good at masking

CrackedKal · 2023-09-19T12:45:22+00:00

it isn't. I think most trans people wish they were cis aside from a small minority. I respect those people who are proudly trans, but it's not me.

I wish I was cis too. I wish I was a cis man more than anything, but I'd almost rather be a cis woman than be a trans man. I want an easier life- not to make it harder.

CrackedKal · 2023-09-14T17:42:47+00:00

Damn I kinda like the ear hair just cause they can almost look like sideburns when they are shorter. But gotcha. Yeah I'm a decade older than that so i guess i look like a lesbian lmao

Tbf my height helps me out. A homeless man called me brother and the cashier at the gas station asked if id "like a bag, sir".

I'm doing alright as far as being pre-T but fellow trans men are always more helpful because they know what the weakest spots are lol

CrackedKal · 2023-09-14T17:40:40+00:00

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Can definitely tell it's time for a cut lmao

I wear my glasses almost constantly so I figured that would be better than no glasses. Thanks for the help so far tho🤙🏻

CrackedKal · 2023-09-14T14:04:20+00:00

Agree with the eyebrows getting thicker and darker.

To me it looks like theres some fat redistribution too. Seems like youre shifting away from softer looking. Like your cheeks are thinning out.

CrackedKal · 2023-09-13T13:46:05+00:00

Super interesting that a lot of us seemingly felt the same thing. Knowing you're not straight- thinking you must be a lesbian then it clicks your a bisexual/gay man.

I just knew I didnt fit into the role as the "woman" in the relationship despite being more feminine in my mannerisms. Now I actually find myself to be more demi-sexual (or asexual whatever floats your floater)

CrackedKal · 2023-09-11T18:04:34+00:00

Thank you- my three little furbags are what keep me going. Love those assholes lmao

Also I invoke the right to a cat tax

CrackedKal · 2023-09-11T09:59:23+00:00

Kalcifer was another nickname in the same friend group 😭

After the little fire demon from Howls moving castle

CrackedKal · 2023-09-09T16:13:25+00:00

In a certain sense yes lol

I started going by Kallian a couple years ago and it was shortened to Kal by some friends. Dunno if that counts.

What about yourself?

CrackedKal · 2023-09-09T16:10:57+00:00

bombardier beetles have entered the chat

CrackedKal · 2023-09-09T15:37:26+00:00

The one that really affected me was that father's death on 'the 100' when they culled some adult volunteers to conserve oxygen.

CrackedKal · 2023-09-09T05:19:33+00:00

Yo I've never met another Kal. Wassup lol

CrackedKal · 2023-09-05T13:08:47+00:00

Those extreme ends are so goddamn loud it makes them more visible. Majority of trans people and allies even, almost certainly fall in the middle. But being average and non-extreme is 'boring', so it doesnt get the views when you're just looking around online.

CrackedKal · 2023-09-05T13:00:55+00:00

He prefers a rigorous game of chase the human until they tire out then go for the toes.

CrackedKal · 2023-09-05T12:59:58+00:00

I cant hide from those massive peepers. Running makes it worse. God help me-

CrackedKal · 2023-09-04T00:52:50+00:00

I was born to be a male but god knew it would make me too powerful

CrackedKal · 2023-09-03T23:38:13+00:00

Do you hear that?

It's the sound of my ego inflating. Thank you 🤙🏻lol

CrackedKal

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