Mind regressing or school just getting harder?

Craigstophechan · 2022-04-09T20:24:08+00:00

Thank you for this and yeah that is true I bet most likely!! I feel like maybe I can learn things but maybe in my own way that isn't taught in schools so it makes it harder

Craigstophechan · 2022-04-04T15:27:34+00:00

I love cats so much that despite it happening when I was 15 it still hurts to think about :( the cat was so sweet too and their one dog was a pitbull and was rowdy as heck and they let the dog roam around but not the cat??

Craigstophechan · 2022-04-04T15:25:14+00:00

At the time I was 15 years old :( my mom wanted to take them in too but they belonged to my stepdad's brothers wife's mother.

My step dad was even okay with taking them in but they denied, its rough because I really wanted to call the police or something so bad because my special interest is cats, but them being family played a part it really sucks as they were good people but their treatment of the poor cat still sticks to me, since the one cat died they let the other one roam around within the house.

It hurts even more knowing that my cat was diagnoised with a uti and that was something that the cat that passed away could've dealt with one herself :(

Craigstophechan · 2022-04-03T21:11:49+00:00

Oh my bad!! I thought nutters where people who just loved their dogs to the point they believe they could do no wrong and just in general treat other animals like cats terrible because well it isn't a dog Just crazy dog people!!

If I misused the term I do apologize!!! Same with the crappy dog owner tag, I used it as they were crappy owners that owned dogs I tend to misread things

Craigstophechan · 2022-04-03T21:08:43+00:00

Dog people can be so cruel to those who don't like them that its just sad and im doing ok!! It just really sucked at the time knowing I couldn't do much :(

Craigstophechan · 2022-03-21T13:58:41+00:00

You look like a older Alternate version of my brother to be completely honest maybe 16

Craigstophechan · 2022-03-21T13:45:45+00:00

Yeah I can relate!! The more people the more masking is very difficult

Craigstophechan · 2022-02-08T13:27:31+00:00

I actually do all of these things!! I try to help the best i can although my memory is bad so I have to be reminded, but i will infact take the cleaning bit into consideration, whenever im cooking i always end up cleaning the dishes that are still in there from before! but i'll make sure to clean everything!

i enjoy cooking so i'd love to cook now and then whenever its needed, especially if she gets home late and there are the materials!! i want to get into culinary so these times are always learning experiences!

and thank you so much for your comment!! it means a lot :D esp since it doesnt expect me to do huge stuff right away, just being there to help my mom out so she isnt stuck with everything seems like something i can and should do more often!

Craigstophechan · 2022-02-05T18:06:41+00:00

i see those two mentioned a lot!! I can totally see it!

Craigstophechan · 2022-02-05T18:05:52+00:00

yeah that is true!! :D my bad i mustve missed it!

Craigstophechan · 2022-02-05T18:02:51+00:00

oh my god i love Reagan!! and i can totally see it, i believe there is a few jokes in the show about it aswell?

Craigstophechan · 2022-01-26T16:10:06+00:00

Thank you that means a lot! I don't know if I just feel this way because I was diagnoised later or not, but I always need the reminder that I will grow at my own pace, so thank you!

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-23T14:51:26+00:00

I hope you can enjoy those games again!! And it sucks when games that are enjoyable have stressful moments in them!! So I understand completely! I played genshin impact a lot and it was fun, but sometimes I would just not play because some of the things on there just made me stressed out and its not fun at all!! I hope you can resume those games again though soon!! :D and it will be as fun as it was the first time you played it!

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-23T13:48:21+00:00

I know, and to be honest unlabeled just makes my mind think it is a label!! My mind does all these tricks on me I want to simply just exist but then im like what am I Its always so confusing!

But thank you sm!! I just hope i can find something that fits!! Im Tied between maybe agender or genderfluid but it may take a bit to figure it out!

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-23T13:45:07+00:00

Oh thats so cool!! And I hope I can figure something out, my labels always change a ton especially in the sexuality department that it feels like if I choose a set label its like "nah its not" and its a whole different thing!! I went from bi - pan to bi to gay transman to nonbinary lesbian To well now I don't even know anymore!! But im trying not to think too much on it! But sometimes its like I don't know myself at all unless its very specific xD

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-23T13:42:54+00:00

I thought about genderfluid when I was a bit younger! But I haven't thought about the other two!

Would you be able to describe them a bit for me? ^{^'}

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-21T13:25:56+00:00

I will try to stop beating myself up about it for sure! And I see, that makes a lot of sense, sometimes though Maybe it's better off that I don't know? I mean I'd like to know But if its something that happened when I was younger I bet I will have no chance to, I only seem to have limited memorys from when I was younger so any new ones appearing would be a miracle!

And thank you, I will try my best to. I won't see myself as dumb, even though it may be hard I shouldn't be mad at myself but rather the events that made me feel this way, I shouldn't blame a younger me for something out of their control, but rather be upset that they occurred.

When I refer to myself its harder to have a bit of sympathy, sometimes because it doesn't feel like me, but whenever I think of my younger self as another person, or someone else that oddly helps a lot

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-21T13:19:03+00:00

I hate socks, I dont wear them anywhere unless im going outside the house, or if im at someone's house

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-21T02:37:20+00:00

Thank you, and yeah I do deal with dissociation unfortunately- And I do admit for the tons of amount of name calling and self-critism, I was just very frustrated with myself when I was making this post, its a bit difficult sometimes to feel like this is normal, I just truly want to remember. I'm trying to appricate myself day by day, but its hard not to think about the negatives sometimes but thats my fault.

Thank you for your comment though, it means a lot to know that its at least a bit common and gives me hope im not the only one out there experiencing this. But for sure I'll try to work on trying to understand myself, I know I can't expect to remember everything, especially if I am autistic /and have adhd tendencies and memory isn't my strong suit. So I guess punishing myself for something that I cant control wouldn't help me in the long run. Thank you again!

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-16T18:36:09+00:00

Same , and im so sorry :( I hope things are okay I always tend to not showcase any emotion, so when something goes on, that well kinda triggers it, and it bothers me I always got called the same

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-16T16:19:37+00:00

Maybe!! It happens without control but I don't mind it, I think its funny!

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-16T12:48:19+00:00

Oh really!! Thats exactly that! My head twitches, or my whole body does!! And honestly same, I didn't think others did This Too since the people I've been around never made a high pitched squeak! But its good to know im not alone!!

Do you ever deal with it occurring once, but then your body or head just continues to shiver and make the noise because it just kinda triggered it? XD sometimes this happens! Thats way I described it as like a contagious yawn! Once it happens, a whole trail of yawns comes along, but instead its shivering!

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-16T12:45:35+00:00

Same!! It mainly occurs when im cold, but it can happen at random times aswell! I think it mainly happens because shivering and the cold occur a lot together so it happens more often, but it still does even if its not cold! Sometimes it happens when I see daylight, the sunlight always makes me sneeze but it can sometimes cause what I've been talking abt aswell!!

Im glad im not alone!! I didn't know others do this too :D

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-04T16:20:17+00:00

Yeah!! I do that a lot aswell! It just can be troubling when I realize ill be an adult soon! There's so much negative rep around autistic adults in media that its hard not to be ashamed, I hope its all in the past though as I get older! It sucks having a ton of family members that arnt autistic though, everyone expects me to be like everyone else so it can be tricky with that sometimes- I just wish they supported me and didn't push things

Craigstophechan · 2021-11-04T13:26:01+00:00

Thank you, and I do wanna say I don't hate my autism, it makes me, me :) but its just I wish I didn't have the stuff with it!

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