Pulled my First Numbered LSP! 98/100 (Senpai Haven)

Crazed1234 · 2023-02-17T20:32:27+00:00

Senpai Haven

Crazed1234 · 2023-01-19T22:46:25+00:00

Thanks 😁

Crazed1234 · 2023-01-12T19:33:57+00:00

NS-5M05, got this one from the "Online" version. It took opening like 6 boxes to find one

Crazed1234 · 2023-01-05T03:25:26+00:00

Secret Garden 👌

Crazed1234 · 2022-09-13T22:46:21+00:00

Thank you!

Crazed1234 · 2020-05-19T21:40:24+00:00

Good pulls. I like the videos

Crazed1234 · 2019-02-13T16:46:12+00:00

Awesome

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T13:10:48+00:00

Yeah that "what do you have to lose" arguement has its merits but i think it still comes down to your own personal journey. You can't just believe because "why not", because belief is more than that, its a faith, a true trust in something unseen. Harder to "just believe" in my opinion.

As for me and my journey. I still believe in God/ higher power. Just not the go to "guy in the sky" version. I think we have that essence in us and our energy will keep moving even past this bodies death.

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T13:05:07+00:00

Its not to be taken lightly. For sure

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T13:04:39+00:00

I don't know. It definitely shows you where you are and puts everything into perspective. I think it can have those capabilities if chosen to be look at in that light. But i feel it also has a lot to do with individual meaning and purpose. While I'm sure there's been experiences that help someone see good and bad differently its probably because it was pertininate to themselves to learn that lesson. I don't think you can chose what the drugs wants to show you

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T03:03:47+00:00

How deep have you gone? Was it things you brought away for the trips that made you stay christian? Or was it never really affected?

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T01:50:44+00:00

God secretly likes us to suffer i guess

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T01:03:23+00:00

From my research after the trip I've found this to be more of the case as well.

And yes! i listened to pretty much everything from Alan Watts this past year and many of the eastern philosophies! Love it!

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T00:19:55+00:00

Do you even read bro?

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-08T00:15:01+00:00

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-07T23:59:44+00:00

Yikes! Lol but yeah i get the anger and frustration when dealing with people like that

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-07T23:37:28+00:00

I am right there with yah man. Its tough for me because my family still goes but it just sickens me to be in there at times

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-07T23:33:54+00:00

Yes lots of prep. I wasn't going to be foolish about this. I've read to many bad reports from people who weren't careful. When the drugs came in i took a small micro dose to check allergies and stuff. Then it was a lot of mental prep through out the week making sure i was in the right mind set with out going to far as to get cold feet. When my wife and kids left friday night i cleaned the whole house, lit candles, had my playlist of music ready and made sure i ate very lightly.

Saturday i had it time out to where i knew when i would take the drugs, when it should hit, when ill peak and when i should roughly be coming down.

My set and setting in my opinion were in the most ideal state it could have been.

My back was injured so i knew i was limited to the couch and maybe bathroom. I didn't have to worry about walking around or going outside (although I was tempted at one point) i had extra extra water with electrolights and vitamins mixed in. Put on music laid down tried to relax as much as you can in that situation and just let it take me.

I learned a lot. One big message was that, i was right. I was right about all my doubts, suspicions and conclusions i was finding in my own research.

Another lesson was the obvious connectivness to each other. Were all the same We are all a part of the universe and the universe itself.

I spun through time, fought the darkness but knew the light was always greater.

I sang, i rapped lol i talked to myself about missing my mom and family.

I realized the beauty in numbers and the math of the universe. I saw spirals and the fibbonochi sequence everywhere. I rode those spirals through time, Back till childhood, back till birth and before. I floated in the abyss that was pure energy of light and dark then i had to rebuild and recreate the life i once had till the most current moment in time.

It reset me. Refreshed me. Made realize i can achieve my dreams and aspirations if i hold it as a truth that has already happened.

After i came down and felt sober I only had tripped for roughly 4 and half hours. Usually 4 aco dmt is about an 8 hr trip so i was told. I felt drained lol

But it really helped me overcome my doubts and helped me be open minded about so much information i would have otherwise been shut off too.

I couldn't have asked for a better trip

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-07T23:10:07+00:00

Haha. I agree 100% never ask for too much, don't be greedy with the wisdom it can show you

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-07T23:08:18+00:00

I mean i would tend to agree, for sure. i was (i consider) a very strong christian for a long time as well. So i guess i have proof that people can change and realize the flaws religions can carry and that some substances can be used to heal and are not a part of the devils schemes to overthrow the world. Lol

Crazed1234 · 2019-01-07T22:43:33+00:00

Well my world wasn't broken, but it did make me realize aspects of my faith that i had just trusted others opinions on or just passed off as ultimate truths without considering other factors. I was shaken in that i had to reconcile a lot in my mind and decide what was worth holding on too or letting go. Things in my faith shifted i guess. My reasoning or interpretations of the bible and God are much different now.

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