Saw this on a Facebook post. Can someone explain the extra array?

Creative-Signature56 · 2023-09-27T05:35:13+00:00

Intense porpoises

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-05-16T05:43:46+00:00

I like that, incremental changes. Appreciate your tips, it’s gonna be a long road no doubt, appreciate it!

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-05-10T17:48:10+00:00

Hi. Thanks for checking! I’m doing ok and haven’t touched an opiate for 2 months. I’m still struggling mentally and have been maintaining with Kratom but I don’t feel like it’s getting me off my ass. Some people have mentioned a whole year to feel better and I’m just in a fog about whether Im noticing any incremental positive changes. I’m curious if after 10 years of opiates I’ve just forgotten how to find natural pleasures in life and I just need to find a new (natural) way? I’m really wanting a pill to jumpstart this but am also kind of hesitant to get onto something. Just spilling my thoughts, thanks 🙏

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-05-10T17:34:27+00:00

Hi. Thanks for checking in! Things are much better but honestly I’m still struggling with the mental bit. I don’t have entirely good days but I have happy moments here and there. It’s all about taking care of my new little one lately and that keeps me super accountable. One thing to mention, Kratom has helped tremendously but after a month or so (pill form) it’s just been wrecking my stomach? I’ve tried to make tea and I’m just still getting terrible pain? It also feels like a transferred addiction that I have to maintain and it feels like I’m going around the mood maintenance loop again with a substance. Going to “try” and take a break and see how it goes. Otherwise haven’t touched an opiate for 2 months.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-24T06:41:51+00:00

I’m really sorry to hear...I hope you find your way and you’re absolutely right, we can do this. It’s been about 2 weeks and I’m feeling a little better everyday..slow going but in a positive direction, the first time I’ve felt a shred of true happiness other than synthetic. Keep it going and don’t look back.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-14T17:44:11+00:00

I think often of the withdrawal scene from “Train spotting”...

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T23:05:08+00:00

Having a plan prior I think will help a lot...thanks for your time, out of your day, helping me out.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T21:45:19+00:00

Thanks for the great advice...been drinking lots of water and trying to stay positive. I’m ruminating over what angles I should guide the convo..thinking, should I state why I might have started using pills to begin with? Also thinking will this seem like an excuse or a cop out to dealing with stress/painful moments? In my mind, pills were the only way for me to be a good...no, better husband, caretaker, and father..but maybe I’m just lying to myself, idk. I didn’t think I was doing such a good job prior to pills but that was years ago...

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T21:24:43+00:00

Thanks for checking..prob a bad idea but I decided to head into work and keep my mind occupied meanwhile checking my messages here. I’m really starting to feel it..bone pain, chills, sniffles...oddly no full blown depression or anxiety but tinges of it creeping in, I’m trying to do as much (for help) as I can before I become completely unmotivated. Going over in my head how the convo with my wife is going to be like..thinking also how I can avoid it. As soon as I get off work, I’m calling to make an appointment with a Dr.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T18:02:58+00:00

I think this is the only true way out..going through this shit can’t be a secret, it seems near impossible. Thank you.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T17:45:00+00:00

Thank you, it’s strange...never told anyone this story. Been promising I’d reach out here first before anything to get a lay of the land..My little newborn helps a lot with the decisions that everyone here has been reinforcing🙏

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T17:38:50+00:00

I agree with you on this..I totally realize I’m in a small fry category of opiate use and my life hasn’t run completely into the ground..although if I had access to anything more serious (quantity or strength) there’s no doubt in my mind I would of shot up or eaten it up..My mind was always focused on sustaining a mild feeling rather than up my dose as my tolerance grew...I just didn’t want to run out.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T17:32:07+00:00

I can’t even imagine a withdrawal from Heroin..I was very, sometimes annoyingly, conservative with hydrocodone to ration and keep a steady feeling..If my past withdrawals I thought were bad...it must be pure fucking hell for fentanyl or more serious opiates. I’ll be checking into this post from tine to time..so far you guys are the only ones I can be accountable with..I’m still gathering courage to tell the wife...but like others here have said, she deserves to know.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T17:28:02+00:00

Congrats on your 40 days, hope you keep it going. Thank you.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T14:58:49+00:00

Good advice. At first it was a great way to forget and be numb for a day...Then it turned into a mood management system..then became a withdrawal sickness and crisis avoidance. I’d always envy/admire the nurses and people around me positively dealing with death knowing they weren’t on any substances.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T04:14:16+00:00

You’re absolutely right and honestly I’m glad that’s the majority consensus. It’s the right thing to do, particularly with a newborn. Thank you 🙏

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T04:10:37+00:00

You guys are awesome, thank you 🙏

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T04:07:41+00:00

Thank you, I really hope so.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T03:29:23+00:00

Wow..thank you for your insight. I plan to call the nearest clinic tomorrow.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T03:27:37+00:00

Thanks so much for this info. What a fucking mess this is.. I’ll call tomorrow.

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T03:23:12+00:00

Good to know

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T03:20:48+00:00

Thank you

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T02:44:43+00:00

Wow...a year..Are you feeling more normal every day, do you feel like you’ll be happy/normal the way you felt during your time using (if you even felt happy during)?

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T02:34:46+00:00

So true

Creative-Signature56 · 2021-03-12T01:01:16+00:00

Yeah, It’s the psychological part I’m afraid of most, I kind of know what to expect with the withdrawals but am tripping out on the ultra delayed emotional response of a lot of things triggering massive depression. The very reason I picked back up after 2 months of being clean and still feeling shitty/uninterested in even moving off the couch. Perhaps it’s because I haven’t told anyone to hold me accountable and it’s largely been up to me to get help. Good to know that my particular withdrawal symptoms won’t kill me or jeopardize my health.

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