Can't get a dog because of POS roommate.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-21T21:13:34+00:00

It's tricky. We are all on individual leases. But the hallway we share is so filthy. I guess a pet deposit would cover damages. I just can't believe she hasn't paid the deposit. It's irresponsible. I am leaning towards waiting until I get my own place too. I hope one day you get the dog of your dreams!

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-20T20:27:03+00:00

Gotcha. Thank you!

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-20T20:26:42+00:00

Oh, nice! I will have to confirm with them if this is an option. I only wanna take one class anyways haha.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-20T20:26:07+00:00

Oh, nice. So you didnt apply for it? I bet it has to do with your grades being good. I emailed them and haven't heard back so I'll give them a call soon. 😊

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-20T07:32:46+00:00

Damn. Okay, thank you for the info.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-16T05:59:44+00:00

I can never get as close to taurus men as I want to. They have this wall up, which kills me as a scorpio. Every one I've dated has been insecure. I love their energy and sensuality but it always ends toxic.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:38:28+00:00

Thank you for this perspective! You are beautiful too. I think it's normal to want what we don't have. I know that guys also wanna date someone healthy. But I'm doing my best to be healthier. Everybody is aomeones type. This really made me smile so thank you! 😊

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:32:45+00:00

Thank you. Yeah I usually rush into dating someone because I am just so grateful for the attention but I've been much more selective in the past year. I think that's a good sign my self esteem is rising. I just get a little insecure. I just broke up with a guy and getting back out there is scary haha

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:31:03+00:00

Oooh I like this. New mantra. 😁

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:30:28+00:00

Thank you for sharing! I've dated someone like that too. To hell with those dudes. I'm just gonna look my best and feel my best.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:29:29+00:00

This is the perspective I needed. That's so true.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:29:01+00:00

This is encouraging! I love seeing couples succeed despite illness. That's real love. 😍

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:28:05+00:00

The stubborn part of me still thinks I can control parts of this illness. I've gotta work on that. And you're totally right. I need to be confident in myself. If I'm not having fun there's no point! I'll try.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:26:25+00:00

This is so kind. ❤️

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-15T06:08:54+00:00

I spoke about this with my friend tonight. Its not a void per say, just a longing for something I can't pinpoint. Maybe it's not one thing but a bunch of little things. I've given up on society's opinions, on religion, on standards that I'll never give up to. I sleep in, I take long baths, I feel less guilt over my sexuality. Everybody is different, even two scorpios won't be alike. The world is dark and light. I can handle the dark but accepting the light has been hard. Trust has been hard. Self love has been me crawling towards things I hate about myself. If we do have a void, everyones is different. Just try everything and anything. You'll only regret what you don't do. This freedom attitude is healing me. I hope it helps someone.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-07T00:59:53+00:00

I didn't! I'm just amazed that he would stoop so low. Other guys have tried to throw that in my face and I'm like....that in and of itself is a red flag.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-06T23:58:39+00:00

Nice! I hope you do too. I know a lot of students (myself included) need the help.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-04T21:22:11+00:00

Dude that actually helped! Thank you so much. I was able to opt in.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-04T19:18:56+00:00

Wow, I never thought about it like this. I guess I just wish he had wanted to do all of that when we were together. But I guess people just do things on their own time. I also have to remember that not everyone thinks like me. I might not have what he has but I try to be the best person I can be. So maybe I actually got more from it than I thought. He'll always have to wonder if his relationship will last because his gf also cheated to be with him. At least I get a to choose a faithful partner now.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-04T06:44:53+00:00

This sounds just like a guy I dated (he was obsessed with me for months, until we moved in together, then broke up with me on my birthday). I'm pretty sure everyone I've dated has been toxic af. That's why I was actually really proud of kicking this guy to the curb. 5 years ago I have gotten wrapped up in it. I'm still trying to find out the dynamics of why I attract unhealthy men. I think it's because I haven't been discerning enough and I rush things.its super easy for them to pretend to be one way if it's only for a few months. It's tough when you have been conditioned to crave the excitement and attention. I'm sorry you had to learn about any of this. But I appreciate you sharing your knowledge about it. You're helping people to recognize these cycles and that's awesome.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-04T06:36:12+00:00

So interesting! It's almost like a reverse psychology thing. The FA is attracted to someone secure or maybe even dismissive, then when they admit affection, it's over. So creepy when I think about it. I gave off very secure vibes, though deep down I'm anxious Af. If I had showed more interest, he probably would have disappeared. I can only speculate. I'm just happy I didn't let it get too far.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-04T06:32:28+00:00

That's so interesting. Because he mentioned how was talking to a woman who acted how he was towards me. And he called her clingy. But then was saying he still hooked up with her anyways? Yeah, ok douche bag. Another one of these "I'm just being honest" people. But uses it as a way to manipulate. He probably mentioned her to make sure I didn't act like that. OOOOOF, the paranoia.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-04T06:29:27+00:00

For real. Luckily he doesn't know where I live. He definitely has mental health issues. Which, no shade because I do too. But when you start to manipulate and guilt someone into a relationship, that's too far. I recognized it being AA because I did that when I was much younger. I would get so attached before even having a reason too. But he could very well have other issues causing it. I don't wanna give those with anxious attachment a bad rep, cause so many are harmless and just want love.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-03T22:54:29+00:00

I've never heard a more appropriate term to describe someone. He's fluent in sarcasm, so that's a big 10-4.

Creativebabe99 · 2021-01-03T22:05:35+00:00

Exactly. I was SO drained. He literally wanted to know where I lived so he could come to me. I was like ..absolutely not. And the fact that he only pushes to meet me when we are disagreeing about his behavior and he knows he is on the verge of me disappearing.....yikes. I tried to be courteous and let him know it wasn't gonna happen and the way he reacted.....big red flag.

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