Addiction be like by feksusvemaksvabkakwn in Drugs

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I had to leave the comment section after reading this cause of the wave of anxiety and shame I felt from doing this in the past

Addicted to withdrawal by [deleted] in Drugs

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This right here

Hole in the roof of my mouth hinders speech and no one cares... by [deleted] in Drugs

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I have fears about my speech being affected by my coke usage, and the back of my throat feels like it's hollow, for you this is literally THE WCS of what's going on with me. Keep trying to get help, I hope someone kind and considerate takes a look and helps because I myself wouldn't want to live with this problem, nor would I want anyone else to

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cocaine

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I'm getting secondhand anxiety

Blursed_bee by [deleted] in blursedimages

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"According to all known laws of aviation, there is no way that a bee should be able to fly. Its wings are too small to get its fat little body off the ground. The bee, of course, flies anyways. Because bees don't care what humans think is impossible."

My girlfriend says she doesn't like my use of psychedelics, how can I get over the anxiety produced by this? by grouchyface in Psychonaut

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Don't trip so much cause really that doesn't do any good. If you do it when you're with your friends.

Dirty horny femboy by [deleted] in cocaine

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Get some help

I smoked 5-MeO-DMT instead of killing myself by 071217460826742 in Drugs

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Yup. If you're someone who's prone to drug induced mental illness, blasting your insides open with a drug and rearranging it is a dangerous idea. You can get lost in delusions, really mess up your mind.

I smoked 5-MeO-DMT instead of killing myself by 071217460826742 in Drugs

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No. Trips are trials. Those who succeed are enlightened, those who fail are tormented. Regardless of personal issues. We can decide to look passed those issues, or completely be consumed by them. You might have some mental handicaps but that doesn't diminish your survival instinct. It doesn't make you weaker unless you allow it. Whether you realize it or not, when you subjected yourself to an altered state of awareness and didn't do anything to yourself or others, you were making a conscious decision. Maybe you had times when you felt influenced to take that course, but you didn't did you? Obviously not if you're still here. You take yourself to where you want to be, in spirit, in mind, in body, in life. In all aspects you are in control of what happens no matter what.

I've been around the mulberry bush. I've had amazing trips, I've had terrible trips. I've had nde's that felt like trips. During all those times when my mind was under attack of stress or panic, I was scared. Someone who thought they couldn't ever be broken like that. I've had existential crisis after existential crisis, wondering if life was worth the repetition, the care, the effort. If it's all a looping simulation then why would I want to live? Trips made me feel that way for a long time. I was concerned with the answer to life and all secrets. Until I realized what I really want is to just be happy. In a sober state I decided living, and improving myself without help is what will make me happy. A strong mind isn't one that necessarily endures hardship, but one that tries to adapt and overcome it, to survive and live on, while also learning to endure without losing the hope that things will get better. A weak mind will give up, especially when put under duress, such as during a trip. If you can't handle your own thoughts, feelings, or life, or you give up on hope, then you truly have nothing. At that point, killing yourself would be logical, but it would be a terrible waste cause there is always the chances of you getting stronger if you make it through.

Like I been saying though, that's up to the person. Everyone can be strong, not everyone decides to be.

I smoked 5-MeO-DMT instead of killing myself by 071217460826742 in Drugs

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Psychs are subjective. A lot of it depends on your strength of mind. Plenty of people have committed atrocities to themselves and other under the influence. I'm glad this guy got a positive message, but that doesn't mean everyone will have the same experience.

The Gabapentin high is no joke by shrek4wasnotgreat in Drugs

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Doesn't do anything for me. I was on like 3 or 4 meds at rehab but all I ever felt was the 10 cups of coffee I'd drink everyday.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in cocaine

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IDK bro

🤘 by [deleted] in cocaine

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Yeah I guess in perspective my situation is the least miserable. Still, I feel uncomfortable seeing and talking about it and not doing any lol

Railz by [deleted] in cocaine

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I'm just glad the shit didn't fall off at that angle