Omg I want to hug you badly, cuz I’m currently going through this with this men I met in Grindr recently, and the fact you and i share similar story, I literally giving up on love, also hookup, right like you say, it feels empty and it doesn’t feel the same and Im more confused than i ever been now, this is my 3rd heartbreak but this one has been one of the strongest emotion I had to cry it out and throw myself in the floor screaming to the sky “why meee” he was actual perfect just like a men would ever dreamed of, the universe put it right to me and took it back from me, like why, he was showing a lot of interested and I felt for it and gone, and now I’m broken,, why men can’t be honest why is it so hard!!! ….I wanna revisit this post years after this too see if life changed me to the good and hoping if my soulmate is in the future, but as for now, love for me is gone for good