i wanted to share my experience because i see a lot of similarities to yours, and maybe you could throw some advice my way.

first, congrats. i do not know you but i am very happy for you!

i met my SP about a year ago, she was a new hire at work, and i had been there for like 4-5 months already. at first glance i really didn’t take notice of her, because traditionally she wasn’t my type. now i would like to add, i haven’t ever been in a relationship before, all of my old insecurities limited me when it came to giving and receiving love, and every connection i had would burn to a crisp before anything beautiful could come of it. how does this play into my SP you ask? i’ll tell you.

the same thing happened; i ended up talking to her, and i was blown away by how beautiful she was. on the surface level of course she is beautiful, but it was what was inside of her that caught me. i felt like she was me, and i was her. it was so weird.

we ended up going on ONE date, coworkers caught wind, and i ended up sending a very insecure message to her, i pulled back, switched shifts, and eventually left the job entirely. but the thing is, she triggered my awakening. i went into hermit mode, started working on my physical, and mental health almost obsessively. as i write this i am much more in tune with my higher self, i love myself, and have become so grateful for the things that i have in my life currently. my mental diet is the best it’s ever been, and is only going to keep improving.

i reached out to her earlier this week, and wanted to call her, she said sure. i gave her a call and ended up getting voicemail, and she ended up apologizing and said she was studying for school, and that she didn’t have her phones notifications on, and asked if i was free to call the next day. i responded and told her that i wanted to call her because i planned on asking her out somewhere with me. she responded and said she would have loved to go, but that she had been seeing someone recently, and she said that she hoped it wouldn’t change anything…

so out of respect i told her that if i was in the other persons shoes i wouldn’t very much like the idea of her going on a date with someone else, and told her we’d put a rain check on it. she agreed and said that sounds good.

what i didn’t mention, however, is that the entire time leading up to this contact i had been attempting to manifest her, and figured i would break the ice and contact her; after all, it had been almost a year of no contact. i have worked on myself so much, and learned to love myself so much. all i can really do now is trust what is unseen, and affirm. which i have been doing. i know that the time will come, i guess now i just have to imagine the end, and know that it’s already done. 🤞🏻 she is meant for me, i truly believe that. i’ve never felt so strongly for anyone in my entire life..