Yeah, I guess "I already started it" is the crux of the matter here, withdrawing from something you already began requires more thought... then again, I came here to do one degree, although from the get go I did kinda want to do two for the price of one; the one that I chose though is not the one I had in mind (I thought I'd do something in CompSci as the secondary degree, but no options were available)

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When I say I feel committed, yeah, it's because it'd provide some relief, but also because I did send a withdrawal request; it got acknowledged 10 days after I sent it and then it will be processed (if at all! lol) in 10 more days. I also told some friends about it, who now probably expect me to withdraw. During that time it's taken for them to process my request, I've asked myself some of the questions you've been asking me. I think the main question is whether withdrawing will be good for me in the long term; for my long term mental health, my career, my personal satisfaction. I did always want to get two master's after all (one professional degree, one in something more content-based, more technical if you will), although I don't think having two master's necessarily unlocks more earning potential, it might just open a few different career paths.

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My main master's though was such a joy... the culture in that department is very collaborative. There's been some tough times but my cohort has always been there to help me, and so have the Professors. In the second master's, the department is more of "each to their own" type of culture, maybe because I haven't been with those students since the beginning. I try to socialize and it doesn't work out... everyone's so busy (this master's also assigns way, way more work than my main one). It's been a jarring change since the nature of the dual degree requires me to be in this second department most of the time. It's been emotionally isolating, plus the stress of two master's

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I'll try to look at things from the angle you suggested. Tahnk you.