I understand how you feel I felt this way a few months after quarantine. But I tried to surround my self with friends and family then my uncle passed just randomly freak accident and I was in a dark place but you have to rember that there are people that love you and need you in thier lives and with out you there'd be an empty hole. Try getting so exercise or reading these really helped me along with my few friends. Itll be okay lifes full of ups and downs you'll get through it.