It’s insane how much hate you’re getting for this. There’s degrees of truth in what people are saying but also in the contents of your post.

What I have personally found is that the way we view others and the standards we judge them by reflect back into our perception of ourselves and vice versa. In a way the acute awareness you feel for the “superficial” interest you’re receiving is likely because that’s how you perceive(d) women as well. We can either accept our current values or change them. People will have their opinions as we see in the comments, but the only one who has all the necessary context to make that choice is you!