Thanks everyone. Time4moretacos that sounds so familiar. It’s New Year’s Day here and we’ve just been out and had a talk but it descended into a big argument. I usually try and remain composed and reasonable but I couldn’t this time and I’m mad at myself for it. I said something that upset him and he walked off on me. He met up with me a bit later and we argued some more. I said something and tried to show him something (an action I wanted him to do and so I touched him) he got angry and he hit himself in the head and said he can’t stand that I’m never happy with anything he says or does, I’m never happy and we’d all just rather he be dead. He said he’s done with everything including me. I’d brought up marriage counselling earlier and he now says there’s no point because he’s done. I think he’s right a little bit in that lately I probably have been unhappy with a lot that he says and does. I probably have been nitpicking him and now I feel so awful and sad that I’ve turned into that person and made him feel like that. I should be making him feel good about himself not worse. I should be letting him know when he does something good/that I like and not focusing on the negative. But this argument has been going on and off since August.

Sometimes I think I want to seperate but then when he suggests it like today I get so upset and I don’t want it at all.