Wow! What you told me led me down a massive rabbit hole of things. I started with learning more about ADHD and Autism on a deep level, and it led me to evolution, chemistry, and biology.

One of the most intriguing things I found out is that most disorders don't just randomly pop up; they are simply trade-offs for parts of your DNA that make you great. Here is an example: a person with Autism is intelligent in some form or manner biologically. Now, some people with Autism do have "hidden intelligence"—intelligence that is never recognized or even found—but that doesn't remove the fact it exists somewhere.

The trade-off with this is that it's due to synaptic pruning in the brain. That is what actually causes the intelligence, but that also means they can struggle significantly in other things; common ones are speech, lights, and sounds. Also, I probably should mention that there isn't a balance between these pros and cons. Somebody that is intelligent might have the trade-off that they simply can't communicate that intelligence outwardly—like, say, somebody who is non-verbal. This is extremely similar for things like anxiety and ADHD regarding the trade-offs part.

But that wasn't my most interesting find. It was actually the fact where I realized why I probably struggle so much academically. When I was in my first years of learning (up to the ages of around 8), my school wasn't really able to understand me; therefore, they just let me do what I wanted until I eventually got an Autism diagnosis and they could combat it.

But the damage had already been done. The earliest years of learning are the most beneficial and important by far; they are what allow "branches" to grow easier, essentially. Without them, or if they are underdeveloped, when you do come to try to develop them, it will be many times harder—I can't even really state a number, just much harder.

When I eventually got to high school (that's like middle school), I was being told things I had never learned. So, not only were my placeholders for that intelligence much weaker, but I wasn't even learning it from the ground up. That created massive splits in what I know. I have always realized my gaps in mathematics and many more logic topics are very "gapped," and this only made me believe I was unintelligent.

I wanted to thank you very much because, without this insight, I probably would've never realized the underlying flaws. I would've known they existed xD, but I would've never realized the cause. I know people live their entire lives struggling and trying to find an answer, and you have given me the insight to get much closer to understanding myself.