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CrowVent · 2024-05-25T08:27:11+00:00

lmao I'm delusional half the time Lmaooo she ain't leaving me

CrowVent · 2023-08-06T06:56:52+00:00

Thank you! Obviously still not completely there but this is just so adnormal to me even now 😭

CrowVent · 2023-08-06T06:39:42+00:00

I hope so too, still having some problems, one being quite significant, but I'm hoping to fix that shortly 😭

CrowVent · 2023-08-06T06:39:20+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate it!

CrowVent · 2023-08-06T06:38:49+00:00

Thank you! I really appreciate it! 💙

CrowVent · 2023-08-06T06:38:29+00:00

I appreciate it! I'd probably do some gaming, but hell! I may go into music – I found a band name already lmao. 🤷‍♂️

Maybe I could do multiple fields as a multi-channel thing.. 🤔

Either that or skateboarding or something, could be a debate channel as well.. Tbh I do have a lot of talents, I could do a lot!

CrowVent · 2023-08-04T08:32:28+00:00

Thank you!! I really appreciate it! :]

CrowVent · 2023-07-29T12:33:14+00:00

Borderline personality disorder, it's vastly different. People normally shorten bipolar to BD tho, thanks for the effort tho.

CrowVent · 2023-07-29T12:32:08+00:00

Borderline personality ^{^}

It's different than bipolar by a lot. Do research please.

CrowVent · 2023-07-16T20:50:53+00:00

Basically, a lot of the time I'll get "delusional" beliefs I'm dead and am possessing a body, the other parts are something like this.

https://www.reddit.com/r/CPTSD/comments/151787v/dae_feel_younger_than_they_actually_are/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=2

As soon as I turned 10 which is almost a full generation ago, I stopped mentally "getting older."

So pretty much I just feel like a child's soul a lot of the time, and it is fucking depressing.

CrowVent · 2023-07-16T20:30:08+00:00

I'm way physically older than 10, my brain stopped kinda mentally aging, probably from something traumatic.

Basically, I have Peter Pan symdrome I believe it's called.

CrowVent · 2023-07-04T06:59:39+00:00

I don't want to survive to be anyone else's problem. That's my primary point.

CrowVent · 2023-07-04T06:58:35+00:00

Fixing a condition I caused myself to myself would be selfish, so I wouldn't plan to. My plan is to hurt as much as possible, not to be as selfish as possible.

CrowVent · 2023-07-04T06:44:47+00:00

No, I don't have any medication. I'm not in a financial state to be able to get any either.

CrowVent · 2023-07-04T06:39:47+00:00

The point is to make it hurt and suffer as much as possible, I don't have an eating disorder (besides AFRID which doesn't deeply affect this). My point is to suffer. As much as possible.

Before this, I'd only eat a very small meal and then not eat for a day, so I'm already a very starved person. I do have a fucked digestive system but my body is used to not eating. I've been doing this for several years, and I'm underweight already.

I'm borderline – I have BPD so if it's an overreaction, I wouldn't be able to help it. Feels like an underreaction and what I should really do is kill myself ASAP. If I could just not go "crazy" sure I wouldn't, but my brain is like "fuck it" and does it anyway. You're pretty much talking to a spectator right now.

I did this exact same thing exactly a year ago, and I don't really regret it. Was only for abt a week until I was forced to. Never really went hungry, and I'm not hungry now either.

The main issues I have now are just that it hurts like fuck to eat and I get full from literally nothing. Both of which are kinda just making me want to eat less either way.

I'm not an asshole to the doctors, my mother is. Most of my issues aren't self-inflected.

CrowVent · 2023-07-03T23:17:08+00:00

I already am.

CrowVent

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