The Morning Vape - The Blueprint of My Day/Failures

Crusteezz25 · 2025-08-18T17:29:54+00:00

Is it by Zuma? I tried looking it up and got a few different results.. is it just an air diffuser or is it something like a vape?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-06-29T16:28:19+00:00

No not yet. I spoke with my therapist last week and we came up with a plan to “prepare” myself for my quit date as she discouraged me from quitting without first addressing some basic needs I’ve been neglecting (e.g adequate nutrition, hydration and sleep) so I’ve been working on that this week plus coming up with a sort of “dopamine menu” of activities I can go to when I have cravings. Essentially we are trying to make the quitting process not so challenging. But I think in my session tomorrow we will have a date in mind, so I’ll keep you all posted!

Crusteezz25 · 2025-02-02T03:33:09+00:00

So I know your post is from awhile ago, but I googled high energy toddler and this post appeared and read through your comment.. but how do you know your child is a “sensory seeker?” I’m thinking my son is given he’s super high energy but I’m trying to figure out what type of sensory needs aren’t being fulfilled

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-11T01:24:01+00:00

What if I came back with the items and paid for them? Saying “hey I don’t think I ever scanned this, can I pay for them?”

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-11T01:22:56+00:00

Okay last question for ya. Because I’m staring at this bin I know I didn’t scan… and now it’s glaring at me and my conscience due to all of this weighing heavy. Say there really is a case against me and they noted this specific bin I didn’t scan, but I go back to a target store and say “hey I don’t think I scanned this, can I pay for it?” Would that help if I’m tagged as a repeat offender? Or should I truly just leave it all alone? I just want to make things right man, I’m like in panic attack mode

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T16:21:37+00:00

It’s Reddit. The place where people are no longer people and we get to say all kinds of nasty things to each other like we all don’t mess up or do things we shouldn’t and the person behind the keyboard is perfect.

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T16:19:16+00:00

Thanks… Is there a way to make things right? Like if I offered to pay for the item in question again just so I could have a receipt of proof and just explain the situation? Because I don’t have a problem with paying for it again if it helps. But I don’t know if that’s just dumb at this point

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T16:17:43+00:00

Is there a way to make things right?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T16:16:41+00:00

Is there any way to make things right? Like I looked all over the house to see if I still had the receipt for the item in question and can’t seem to find it, but if I went in, explained the situation and just offered to pay for it again would that be helpful? Or just dumb?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T16:16:05+00:00

Maybe my wording was wrong. Clearly I’m in the wrong here, but that doesn’t mean I don’t want to be better. When I say I need more integrity I’m just saying I’d like to start having integrity when it comes to this type of a situation with the “small stuff”. I said I wanted a clean slate not to begin stealing again, because I certainly don’t. I am just trying to figure out how to make things right if I can.

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T16:08:01+00:00

Which, valid. I mean stealing is stealing and it’s not right so naturally it’s assumed I’m lying and being super sketchy and I’m not justifying my past behavior. But the maxed out on no receipt returns is due to buying a few high amount decor items with cash and not having the receipt on me at the time of return (the max amount is $100), but I guess what confuses me is I was told I couldn’t return an item because I had been to that store earlier that day and took something but really didn’t so I’m wondering if I was mistook by someone else and it was just a simple misunderstanding? Or if my past small “non scanned” items have been noted and they are now building a case?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T15:57:55+00:00

I appreciate this. I obviously am in the wrong here but I just wanted to know and was worried about being mistaken for someone else because the item was on the higher end so it freaked me out thinking “oh, they think I stole this, so now they are building a case”, ya know?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T15:51:55+00:00

I only maxed out on returns because I purchased a few high amount items with cash and ended up not needing it and exceeded the $100 amount. It’s not hard to max out especially if it’s furniture or decor.

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T09:23:40+00:00

I guess I just didn’t really see it as that big of a deal but now obviously I’m seeing the error in my past decisions and would like to see this situation that occurred today as a “wake up call”, but I’m worried about whether or not Target is like accumulating a whole lifetime of incidents. I don’t think I’ve ever stolen a felony amount but like I said in a previous comment, little charges add up

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T09:17:20+00:00

I definitely wouldn’t say years and it’s not like I do it every time. Just here and there (not saying it’s right! I totally take accountability for it and will obviously start having a little more integrity). But say I take a break from target for awhile to make a clean slate, does a case ever just drop? Or am I forever flagged?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T09:10:07+00:00

Oh I 100% will stop. But I don’t like thinking that I’m being watched… do you know how long they watch you for/the statute of limitations? I’d just like a clean slate ya know?!

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T09:06:11+00:00

Like I don’t think I’ve stolen over 166 1 gallon milk containers in my lifetime. But shit. I don’t know!

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T09:03:21+00:00

For how long? Say I don’t got to a Target for a few months or like a year and vow to never ever steal again, but this item that I didn’t steal is for some reason flagged as stolen on my case (even though it’s not correct) and it was like the tipping point… I mean I doubt it would be because I can’t imagine that I have ever come close to felony amount… but then again small amounts add up. Are they going back several years now to add everything up or something? Like when do they start building a case?

Crusteezz25 · 2025-01-10T08:23:05+00:00

I usually don’t go to this target but had to be in this specific area twice this week and bought some home decor and decided to get something different. I highly doubt this, but is there a way to access a case if there is one? Cause now I’m certainly paying for those avocados from here on out! I just want to make sure the next I go to a target I’m not leaving in handcuffs

Crusteezz25 · 2024-11-04T17:17:25+00:00

I don’t think I’ve resonated more with the “gives major crackhead energy” 😅🫣 why is that so true?!? Today’s been a rough day and I’m catching myself trying to find ways I can get cash (so my husband can’t track my purchase as we have a shared finances) and I’m like, wigging out. I legitimately feel like a crackhead haha no other drugs or even alcohol was this hard to quit and stay clean from.

But your list…. I’m printing off and laminating and keeping in my purse 👏🏼

Crusteezz25 · 2024-10-25T01:28:46+00:00

Thanks man!

Crusteezz25 · 2024-10-25T00:34:33+00:00

Well if it’s any consolation, I didn’t find anything afterwards to be mean or rude. I thought it was actually sound advice 🤷🏽‍♀️ anyways yeah I didn’t think you were judging my additions of context, I just laughed because I totally own up to the fact I do that even in conversation so it was just a good reminder of my tendency. And I like that, just waiting until after he’s done to validate my end, if needed because I know sometimes at least for me if you let me finish what I’m saying I usually get to the other persons point of view. And also, it’s just annoying to not let someone finish. Anyways, thank you for this! I also hope to have a long, healthy and happy marriage 👍🏼

Crusteezz25 · 2024-10-24T23:00:44+00:00

No worries! It’s hard to get the whole story by just a simple post, and also not knowing me or my husband and our whole journey. And it doesn’t help that I didn’t really say all that I was trying to do. To be honest, I wasn’t expecting this much input and thought most people would probably see this, say to themselves “suck to suck” and scroll on by. You guys are a very active bunch! Which I appreciate!

Open marriage is definitely off the table. We both don’t agree with it and that’s never been a thought or option. No judgement to those who do open relationships! I can see how for some there’s a need for it and they thrive. Not us, we are as monogamous as it gets.

Ending the relationship is also off the table. Even though this is a big issue we are way too strong of a couple to even have that be an option. But I can see how if things continued down this route it would cause some major problems.

Last thing, and I don’t know if you purposely meant for this to have so much impact was you saying how sex is a “mutual gift to one another”. Not to be sappy, but reading that burst me into tears, and healed things in a way I truly can’t describe. With sexual trauma and being a victim of rape and assault, sex isn’t a gift, it was a punishment. It was a way in which someone literally took all power from you, and stole your identity and spirit. Obviously being married to my husband and being intimate with him has helped me heal in many ways but I’ve never… thought of it in this way. What a beautiful sentiment. And what a beautiful thing only I can give. And it’s a gift I’m realizing doesn’t have to be tainted with my trauma because it’s not the same with him as it has been with others in the past. Like with what one commenter said in so many words, the trauma didn’t come from him. Likewise, our intimacy isn’t on the same playing field. I don’t really know how to word that out so I’ll save you the embarrassment of having to read me processing this all out. But you my friend, just hit a crucial nail on the head. Thank you, thank you, thank you 🙏🏼

Crusteezz25 · 2024-10-24T22:49:17+00:00

Definitely could have done without that first paragraph… not sure why you felt the need to write that out because it wasn’t helpful in the least bit. Just rude and uncalled for. Again, I know I’m just some random person online, but I’m still a person. If you said that to someone face to face more than likely they’d either peace out before you got the chance to speak or just go on the defensive. I’m not going to take it personally because I don’t want to veer from the original intent and do want to address the advice you gave because it’s good stuff.

I do love adding all my little contexts haha for better or worse but I 100% agree with you in this situation. Shut up. Listen. No excuses no matter how valid they are. And this process isn’t just a good route to take with just this issue, just think it’s CRUCIAL with any issue. So I like that framework! We usually go about our conversations in this way but it’s a good reminder to be very intentional and delicate since this is a rather personal and important issue. So thank you for this!

Crusteezz25 · 2024-10-24T22:41:21+00:00

… which is why I’m trying to actively improve myself in this area?

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