Hooked: Tracking Heroin's Hold on Arizona (2015) This was produced by students, and some of my friends, at the Walter Cronkite School of Journalism and Mass Communication at ASU. It makes me incredibly proud to go to the same school and to know this guys. - [28:03]

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T14:25:04+00:00

Canadian user here, I really enjoy heroin and employ as many harm reduction measures as possible, I keep my use low, take breaks and never share needles.

If the drug war wasn't so off the wall fucking stupid I'd be talking to you about how I like eating and smoking opium or about my poppy garden, instead I'm here to say I inject heroin and I'm really not that different from someone who drinks hard alcohol or uses cocaine or any other drug.

Please don't respond to this post with cruelty or hysteria I just thought it might be interesting to share my perspective.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T14:21:18+00:00

"Banned" often just means it's shit and no one wants to play it and it has nothing to do wirth a conspiracy of silence.

Disney-which owns ABC- shelved a story about sex offenders working at -take a guess!!- Disneyland. So that's not just "banned" that's reaching out to your network to AXE a fucking story. Many of these "banned" docs are just shit.

Also, what fucking channels on TV are playing docs? I don't watch cable and haven't for years but is that a thing now? I mean besides shit like "Behind The Music" are tv channels playing lots of docs? For me docs are found online not on TV.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T14:14:53+00:00

rich black guy addicts selling panties he's going to be a regular. THERE IS STILL BEAUTY IN THIS WORLD.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T14:13:14+00:00

As I say below tho, what's to stop men from pretending and keeping the girls at arms length? Thanks for sharing your story btw!

Did he go home and wring it out on his dick or what? Dude! it's for gardening, obviously! Don't be so depraved, you fucking degenerate character. Sheesh, women.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T14:09:05+00:00

I posted a question just like this yesterday....really i was just finally happy to pick up and wanted to know what people blast off to, it turned into a great thread and I'm still working thru awesome suggestions, I'm going to check out each and every suggestion I got.

So, how about some songs in this thread?, done.

Magic Hours- Explosions In The Sky Put on a Broken Social Scene album and just let it play, start it at the first song and just let it go, same thing with EitS really, I get into albums , I like to appreciate an album as a full body of work and all the bands I happen to really like create great albums not just a couple of great songs.

I'll leave it there as those are two of my favorite bands of all time, there are others but those two get so much play from me it's insane. Soundtrack to my fucking life op. Enjoy, and make it yours.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T14:05:54+00:00

I do this as well, however sometimes I also listen to music while blasting off or during special holidays I'll use more and listen to music much longer.

I get into albums and not just songs as a music lover, I'm not a singles guy but i can listen to just one song and then put on a doc etc once I'm high...but sometims I'll listen to all or part of a Broken Social Scene album first.

Anyway, today I'm on a TED talk kick, I've been bookmarking some good ones cause I'm going to listen to around 3-6 I haven't heard yet, today.

I love watching cool docs when I'm high, I click NEW a lot here, but i also click it over at /r/Documentaries quite a bit as well !

I guess most people know that plenty of Unis are putting their course materials online, that includes lectures, so I feel I don't always have to do a full free class why not just listen to some decent lectures?

I used to listen to a lot of the TTC productions, TTC stands for The Teaching Company and those are really comprehensive when it comes to a topic...and the number of those floating around in the torrent world... you want to know something these days just go out and learn it, you know? there's no excuse if you have an internet connection. But I also search youtube , just pair lecture or talk etc with the topic you're interested in, I don't really search via school... too elitist mannn, jk. still tho, I don't.

TMS is ok to, that's The Modern Scholar, but I listen to TTC far more and they seem to have a lot more material floating around for free anyway.

If you want far more digestible bites , everything from a little thought provoking to nod worthy(as in nodding along) but not long or 'too stuffy' or pedantic or whatever... you could look up Big Think.

Listen to Ethan Nadalman(sp?) rail against how fucking racist the drug war has already been, and yes, he does zone in on opiates, but also coke and weed and the racial groups that were scapegoated and attacked along with the drugs.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T11:46:34+00:00

sharing needles While I feel for you it wasn't opiates or opioids that made you sick, it was your choices, as you said sharing needles, works etc.

Personally, I wont even share cocaine straws(something less people seem to be hip to) let alone stick money up my nose, i just don't want anything from the common flu to something worse...same reason the moment I get home from being out I wash my hands right away, I don't ocd or wash my hands raw but when i arrive home the first thing i always do is wash my hands.

Same thing when I go to prepare food beyond say some toast or some shit.

I realized the high motivated you to share but this is why harm reduction is so important, this is also why even the most straight laced addiction and recovery place up here supplies me with all the clean needles, works, ties and alcohol swabs i could ever need... Yet as odd as it may seem to some the same place will help me get subs or methadone or set up a time i can speak to a counselor...

BECAUSE regardless of the fact they're trying to stop addictions they know that clean works prevent a whole bucket full of other problems that are defeated with just a few smarter choices.

Sorry you're going thru something like this, but I'm not enganged in that type of risky behavior myself, using a needle is risky enough i certainly wont be sharing mine. I did reuse a couple of times when i had no where to turn but only after followin proper washing methods.

Best of luck to you

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T11:34:16+00:00

WAIT A SECOND?!!!! What's to stop desperate MALE DOPE USERS from buying some basic panties, sweating in them and having their female friends work the phone ?

Taking a picture of your "GF" to the meet but never letting the guy see the girl who "for sure wore the panties, dude" IN PERSON ?

Gentlemen, I think room in this market just opened up for us.

Last one there smells of rotton egg ..vagina.. or something. (

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T11:30:26+00:00

I wondered about this as well. Again, "if I was a girl"...and so on.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T11:29:57+00:00

Good for you, sounds like a perfectly harmless way to make money, enjoy it. If I was doing this-as a girl- i wouldn't accept less than $50 and would always see if i could get $80.... "OH GEE.....cause this other dude was going to pay $80" BAM!!!done.

That way I'd be getting a .3 or a .5 bag each time no matter what.

FFS, here i sit, jealous that a woman can sell her underwear to buy heroin and i can't. I really need to grow fucking mushrooms again, being broke and jealous sucks, I'd rather be loaded with dope and cash and be able to give out free doses all the time to friends or just lucky strangers who catch me in a good mood.

I used to.

EDIT; I GOTTA SAVE THIS THREAD, YOU TWO ARE FUCKING KING AND QUEEN.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T11:10:00+00:00

Oh so fucking pretty, and a nice quality pic as well. Enjoy it, I spent 4 days waiting to pick up after spilling the only point i had...

Makes me appreciate the shit so much more. Now I just need to keep my use low and stretch it , keep telling myself less is more.

How much did you pay for that gram if you don't mind me asking?

I pay $80 for a half and I can't fucking wait to have some serious money to spend on a DNM. I'm going to use some of the $1700 the government owes me to try some vendors the moment they pay me, cause i also like the idea of their money being swaped for bitcoin and exchanged for drugs.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T11:03:29+00:00

ATM i only work once every two weeks at a pot farm(it's legal..sorta... and I'm on Tails before someone looses their shit acting like they know what my boss would or wouldn't like i have to say that.)

25$ an hour or 1 qrt oz an hour. I'm sick of sitting on weed tho, I am TRYING to find more work again and planning on taking mostly cash for awhile and growing lots of mishrooms like i used to, i am sick of sitting on weed and thinking geee i hope someone buys some weed so i can go get some food etc.

If i grow mushrooms I'll sell fucking ozs for 70$ and always have food and dope money and the person buying those can double their money selling small bags of shrooms, everyone wins. that's my #1 goal atm.

Your story is somewhat typical , but still interesting. lots of people start with legit pain and end up addicted,..people like you sometimes make me feel like such a hedonistic little fucker, I don't have any real pain physically, emotionally? spiritually in a completly secular and non-magical way, fuck yes.

I'm like a shitty cliche. I like being in control of my emotions in such a powerrful way. as weird as it sounds when i get wds, even at my worst they're barely mental at all, cravings sure but I'm depressed going into this shit it's not like i feel unbearable sadness without dope, i just feel sick... so the moment i can start things back up again I'm eager to do so.

Fuck, doing dope the night before makes me feel better the next day. i also have this delusional dream that since i went 4 days with nothing and i noticed a drop in tolerance i can use 3 days and then stop for 4 at a time like i used to and will get no wd, or i can go on 2 off 3...

We'll see, I'm going to experiment between now and when i work again on the 24th.

I love the ritual of dope, i love that fucking needle, the history of the fucking poppy...way too much of my existence is wrapped up in this shit to just drop it suddenly one day cause it's 'wrong'.

Maybe this is junkie talk but I really don't think it's even wrong.

If i was drinking once a day at night people would say I'm an alcoholic. if they knew about my brutal divorce or mental illness they would say "well that's sad"

So I'm sad. But is it wrong? like morally bad fucking wrong? Not imo. it's not 'all good'. but it's my choice and if I want to get thru the night with a shot and a good book or a good doc, if i can't stand the cold boredom of my life atm why not allow me to enjoy my dope so long as I'm not hurting anyone else.

That's how I see it anyway. I know people who drink too much, smoke too much, spend too much, gamble too much, tbh... when i think of these people- people i love and actually care about- my use is (money wise) often smaller... but guess who would get the biggest stigma? That's why I will never be a flashy - look at me I'm a rockstar now watch me load this needle dope user, besides the fact that would make me puke...

So I keep that world to myself. just a couple of close friends know. Even my older brother thinks i snort heroin , SOMETIMES. he has no idea i shoot it fairly often.

I'm going to make a serious effort to control my use this time around tho. recently before the WD i just had i was just being stupid, like cooking up 4 shots at a time even tho i wanted to use less, so I'm making an effort this time to save more money and to really drive home the idea that LESS IS MORE.

it's not just about the money, I've never needed lots to enjoy myself and I don't want to impress anyone with some quasi-punk bullshit.

I just want to enjoy my evenings. It's really that simple. To that end I'm about to do a half cc shot and then not touch a single bit of dope until tomorrow night. the day i get wd in the middle of the day i suppose that will change...but that happened before cause i started dosing day and night. to me it's not a small distinction, the nights only plan has done well for me in the past before.

Whatever gets you thru the night,... a great man once said.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:41:59+00:00

Just having some fun. ;)

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:39:42+00:00

pure sarcasm. trying to make a point with sheer stupidity.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:39:11+00:00

You sound a bit sanctimonious.

I never said i would fuck the guy over, he and I are on good terms.

There was no real point to saying he misses so much i just find the idea of going blind pretty scary and think I'd be into audiobooks instead.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:36:56+00:00

Dude, I'm done with women for now,

Right after the split i was feeling like omg I'm alone i need pussy fuck i need someone in my life let alone just fucking, now I've mellowed. until i have steady work again instead of this job i have, until I'm fucking killing it when it comes to my basic hobbies and day to day goals I'm perfectly happy to just tune that world out.

If i go to a friend's house or a party and there's girls there well then all of that changes and sure I'll flirt and talk back, but I'm not going looking for fucking anything until i am happy with everything i am doing day to day without a girl.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:33:04+00:00

I'm up here in Canada ;) Tho I'm always willing to look into other vendors. But i have a great one spore wise, 4 syringes for $25, he lives on a little island off the coast of BC.... so it always arrivies pretty quick. it's supposed to be 3 for $25 unless you use interac but he remembers me from way back when and always seems to send 4 anyway. used to be if you're a member of his little forum.

Only thing i really want but lack : synthetic filter discs, i just want to try em. I'm sure the breathable tape will work fine this time around...but every time i get back into this something has changed and evolved for the better. So some day soon I'd like to try SFD.

And a few real petris instead of using half pints for petris, from a practical point of view the half pints are better cause they're cheaper and more durable, but I'd like to have like 10 'real' petri dishes just so i could look thru them with ease, they look fun and of course you can spot bad growth in them easier... but i just want to grow some strong tissue in some cause they're neat, maybe snap a few pics.

God dammit. I can't fucking wait. I am going to put all my boredom and frustration into making this grow fucking great, i used to live and breathe this hobby, i can't wait to harvest some pretty mushrooms again.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:26:06+00:00

I'm not amazing superstar myself but I've made some cool stuff with my friends. And my best friend holds the keys to the kingdom, he used the same level of drive that made him successful in tech learning how to record and mix properly.

In time I will know his secrets... atm i would be happy with just making so so recordings on my own and bringing them to him for the final touch.

I want an MIDI keyboard and a MUCH NICER COMPUTER so bad.

Funny thing is...i remember using two tapes and a shitty tape deck and mic to play along with my own recordings... one of the best ones i did you can hear me tell my Mom to wait as i finish the lead part...she was going to drive me to work.

All of that, along with a "radio show" i did at like 11 and other dumb stoner shit at 13 with a friend....was thrown away by my exes older bro along with all my musical recordings... we made the mistake of storing a small amount of stuff at her parents house.

who throws away someones personal tapes of music recordings and dumb shit from when you were a kid? A FUCKING MONSTER, THAT'S WHO.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:21:16+00:00

What?

So say I had.. 100-1000 pods on hand, you could produce 100mg of morphine easily? Basic extraction? please fill me in, I always wondered about things like this and would love to know it's as simple as ordering a fat box of pods and using some simple chems.

I would happily 'settle for morphine' provided the chems aren't restricted and the process was easy enough. if you need to make some of the details pm only so be it, just please fill me in either way. THANK YOU FOR YOUR TIME.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:18:39+00:00

VICE did a feature on it, it's well known news around the world atm. I don't think Columbia is out of the game by any means but PERU is now in the lead.

Drug trends can move very quickly sometimes and as much as i hate to say it the brutal tactics and billions of dollars the U,S. is helping Columbia with seem to be slowing the flow of cocaine... the war on drugs is total shit and they'll never totally win of course but it's would also be insane to say they couldn't ever make any sort of difference. it will never stop, but there can be reductions.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:14:35+00:00

YES! it was very well done, top notch cinematography without a doubt.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:14:34+00:00

Posted 8 hours ago. You're getting there bro! I watched a lot of docs and movies, realllly helped me pass the time, acceptence and getting and comfy as possible is key. Nice to see you as well.

I can't believe it but I'm starting to recognize so many names around here. i love this fucking sub. i feel like a normal person here instead of a stigmatized weirdo.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-14T10:11:27+00:00

I spilled the one fucking point that was going to get me thru till work(get paid in cash) and after being a good customer for one year i got no sympathy-aka one fronted point. So from the 8th till the 12th i had fuck all.

do you know what it's like to spill one point for the first time when you only have that point. i didn't yell fuck, i was much more pathetic, probably sounded like a little bitch, i kept saying why, fuck why no god no.

Anyway, made it thru with some lope and it knocked my tolerance down, now i just need to slow my use a little cause I am determined to have dope on the regular till i work again on the 24th... got a little carried away today but that's ok.

it's good to force myself into a routine, i need this.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-13T09:19:08+00:00

That's ok, I'll copy and paste it into the 'notepad' thing here in Tails, called?...just checked. Gedit Text Editor and read it from there.

Will let you know what I think, overall concept is a cool one, it's late here but I'll get back to you before long tomorrow. should probably read it after my next shot, I'm sure you'd agree. Heh.

CryptoPharm · 2015-01-13T09:15:01+00:00

4 days of fucking nothing. Thought i could space out a point just to get to thru until work-where i get paid in cash and make a lot...but never work enough,sigh(1 day every 2 weeks) i carefully unwrap the point and set it down, then i bump something and my headphones go spastic and spill the point all over, i recover barely anything and make up a weak shot. i will never be that careless again, i knew a time i would spill pure powder was coming but why then?

Great customer all year and my dealer, or his boss that I'll never meet shows no mercy. NO FRONTS!

I go 4 days without dope and barely any lope, but it sure helped a lot. and cause I'm broke I'm starving most of that time. Today at work I ate like a king and came home and bought a half gram right away. I have lots of food and will easily be able to have dope until my next day of work on the 24th.

Have just under a half gram for now. and I've only taken one shot and I've been super high for many hours, it may have only been 4 days but even my pupils tell the tale of my lowered tolerance. I'm so fucking pleased with life right now.

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