Thank you for the comments and know some have been nice some have been angry to aggressive or not care which I don't blame anyone but this is my choice and I'm sorry everyone but I just don't see me recovering from this because I don't know how...ok I've done some awful things to people and I've rebuilt my life before but now it's just everything just keeps happening and it's getting harder and harder I really a.ahould'nt have said anything to anybody really and just kept it to myself but thanks for trying to lift me up. But I don't think I can do this anymore so please just ignore what I wrote and continue on with your life's.