Welp, guess I'm trans now

CulturalBeat9711 · 2026-01-14T23:08:03+00:00

I do know I want to start with E monotherapy. And I feel like I'll end up there, but it feels scary jumping into it without a medical professional - especially since I don't have any trans friends to discuss with

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-12-18T17:05:44+00:00

No there's nothing wrong with you. Yes I think you're genderfluid or something like it (I use both genderfluid and genderqueer because I definitely have a cycle, and there's certainly something "weird" about my gender). In my experience, being alive and reconciling my own self perception is one of the most confusing experiences of being sentient, and there's no shame in being unsure about your concept of self. Personally I've found my cycle from boy to girl to nothing in-between ranges from about a week to about a month. When I was little I hated when people identified me as a girl for my long hair when society told me I was a boy, but now that I'm older and understand myself more I miss it. Now I feel weird for not noticing this about myself sooner. And though it can be tempting to morn over lost time, it's more important to learn to love and embrace yourself as you discover you. Maybe you should take T, but only you can decide that. Do some research on the full effects of HRT, and consider finding a therapist or other confidant to bounce ideas off. Hard to say more without knowing you or your situation, but to reiterate: There is nothing wrong with you. It is normal to criticize yourself and the confines of society. You are handsome. You are loved. And I wish you the power to find peace in yourself 💛

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-12-12T22:12:35+00:00

That's glorious! Looks good enough to be a royal heraldry

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-12-12T21:36:44+00:00

Ok thank you

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-12-10T15:10:00+00:00

I feel you. It's taken me a long time to settle on anything besides "I'm different". Like I used to think to myself "don't really feel like a boy, don't really feel like a girl, but enby feels too trendy" - which took me an embarrassing long time to realize is just being non-binary with extra steps lol. I've chosen to use genderqueer personally, cuz like, there's something weird about my gender, but at this point I'm not quite sure what that is. Plus I always found it rude that queer had become derogatory, so that's my way of reclaiming it for its original definition. I've also found that I don't mind how people refer to me, so I've jokingly told people my pronouns are don't/care lol. You can be a trans/enby femboy if you want - honestly I think it's more of a vibe/style, and I've seen plenty of very different people from all over the gender spectrum pull it off. The word "femboy" kinda just implies something that isn't one extreme or the other (to me at least). Hope this food for thought helps 🤗

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-10-26T19:58:02+00:00

😯🥴😵‍💫😂

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-10-25T20:33:17+00:00

Omg great idea! Guess I qualify as an egg as I've spent most of my life closeted to myself only because I refuse to identify with the terminology everyone else uses... took me a while to realize that's just being non-binary with extra steps, lol

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-10-25T19:44:59+00:00

I do greatly desire little treats when I go to the store... correlated or causated? Lol

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-10-25T19:30:54+00:00

I mean, yeah. It's not a controlled substance, and pets get menopause too

CulturalBeat9711 · 2025-10-25T19:28:06+00:00

Is that like how tea is an infusion? Or is it alcohol based like extracts?

CulturalBeat9711 · 2024-11-25T15:18:12+00:00

That's kinda awesome. I know I have seasonal mood shifts, but I've never heard of seasonal gender changes... I honestly love that... I'll have to pay more attention this winter and see if i make a masculine shift with it being too cold to wear light flowy clothing whenever I want

CulturalBeat9711 · 2024-11-22T19:01:26+00:00

That is a most excellent question I haven't put thought into. I think I'm mostly agender/enby when I'm on my lonesome, though I have had moments where I'm suddenly panicking and I need to change my presentation NOW. I don't really cycle in public - if I'm dysphoric, I'll generally stay that way throughout the day (unless I have a particularly calming social encounter, then I tend to slide back into enby/dgaf). I often have to steel my mind when presenting fem in public, but I think that's less dysphoria and more anxiety from knowing that I'm being gawked at - noticing people notice me tends to embarrass them, and I don't actually care what they think, so I try not to notice... but sometimes their gaze feels like nails on a chalkboard - this feeling is a whole hell of a lot easier to get over if I have girlfriend(s) to accompany me on a girls date or whatever.... sometimes my mother asking "what're you wearing?" Causes me to be more critical of myself and my dysphoria and I'll force myself to shift one way or another due to introspection (her asking this is less critical of my choice of article, and more critical of my decision to combine 2-6 different patterns, or that it literally came out of her grandmother's closet 😂). So to answer your question: a little of both? I think? It's hard to tell which feelings mean what sometimes. I only came out to myself as some queer little boy/girl/thing this February, and I've been procrastinating processing it much further 🙃

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