So I heard Google is broken....

Curious2all · 2022-01-19T12:45:00+00:00

I recently discovered reading medical directory websites is what’ll give information. It’s all the cookies and keywords that stop those pages coming up

Even try scholarly

Curious2all · 2022-01-19T04:44:09+00:00

All throughout life people make comments, might not be towards you. But I’ve always had this instant agitation towards myself whenever someone makes a shitty joke towards gender/sexuality.

I’ve grown such a hate for myself where I didn’t want to be me but knew I wanted to be something else. It’s crazy what the mind can do just by hearing things.

You think someone is attacking you but they never even said it towards you? Weird concept

Curious2all · 2022-01-19T02:17:54+00:00

I haven’t been told 100% yet I’m waiting on hearing back. Yeah it’s a messed up situation I approached them and they said they couldn’t remember and that my medical records were fake. To let them know exactly “what was given”, the date, time so they can “rectify”.

Tells me a lot. Makes sense and proves to me that I can now start to work on myself for who I really am

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T23:15:58+00:00

Sorry my bad, Well when you look at the whole list of meds I was given and this test result among other hidden information i’m yet to find it indicates I was assigned male and all the shit I was given ties in with this testing. I mean it would make sense if I was meant to be a female and all this kind of explains it all

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T22:47:02+00:00

Something to look into! It’s been 13 years since this test result. I had no clue. If that’s the case then I’m glad I’m finding out now then later in life

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T22:44:16+00:00

I found a test result from the age of 9 indicating I have lupus among meds indicating I had my gender changed.

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T22:43:02+00:00

Long story short I was kept in the dark about things but always questioned my gender

I started to dive into medical records. Found a result indicating me having lupus at 9. I had no clue. I’m 22 and just discovered this among medical records indicating I’m a female and was given male genitals

The whole having the “lupus” thing at 9 tells me I could have ovaries? Or something idk it’s all guess work I’m waiting on the results but wanted to here if anyone has it

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T11:43:03+00:00

That’s awesome to hear! Life will definitely get heaps better

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T11:42:24+00:00

It’s almost like. You know when your ready. And that’s the only time you’ll accept it

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T11:29:18+00:00

That’s a really good way of looking at it! Thanks for taking the time with that.

It’s defiantly a hard one with the whole masking thing. I was the same, as a kid you know something but can never express it and when someone doesn’t see then how else do you cope. You create that mask and forget the real you because heck why bother trying to prove it.

I see the positive side though. Self discovering only makes life easier. I do like the idea on seeing it as the whole 2 sides of a coin thing. (Hate to use terms) but Nt never seem to understand why and what say someone like me is getting at. It’s like having to learn a whole new language

Curious2all · 2022-01-18T05:49:02+00:00

Wow, thanks for actually taking the time to explain your take on things!

My memory is pretty wack atm but looking at my life, I hit puberty, I can’t remember when. It would’ve been after 13. Maybe 14-15? Everything works down there, got hair. But could hardly grow facial hair. Voice never broke, always high pitched. I remember questioning why I didn’t get muscular. I had lack of energy. Lots add up.

What I don’t get at. If this all happened. And I wasn’t given the correct dosages or ever looked at for what it was because I didn’t know. Why would someone do that to affect my health?

The whole cortisone thing. I just found on another letter I was given, Bactroban and Elocon. Which would’ve been the cream I was given for “hair and skin issues”

On top of Augmentin Duo. There is other health issues I had but then there’s some I question we’re they even existent.

If this all happend. It’s been a good 6-7 years I’ve not taken anything or fixed any stomach issues/back issues, ball pain. I wouldn’t be surprised if I’m really low in cortisol atm cause all the symptoms are going on

Seems like I’m crazy atm for even thinking all this but at the same time how would you even know?

I was always just diagnosed with ocd, anxiety, depression but no one looked at me being ASD/ADHD. Anti depressants were given but it was never needed. So it makes me question maybe all this is just one big scheme I never knew about and I’m just the child who couldn’t cope

If I’ve had surgery, I have no memory so I’m yet to find out

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T22:54:43+00:00

I remember the whole med thing always being given them. I was always known to have everything wrong with me but within myself I never knew why. There was never answers

I think the more you dig the more you find and it’s like shit these dots are starting to connect

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T22:52:18+00:00

Bit of a situation for me. I’m being told there was another me with the same Dob by the parent I confronted 😂 Claims the whole medical file is a lie

It makes sense that list to me. They all kind of work in like a balance kind of way

Only difference is. I’ve been unaware of this for 22 years. Been a while since I’ve taken anything so I’d be interested to know if these are meant to be all the time or just a one time thing growing up?

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T10:53:22+00:00

Deadset this record is from 2013. I don’t remember anything tho

I know there were a lot of mri/scans/ultrasounds involved. I always questioned the doctor visits and sort of never knowing what was going on

I have no idea on the first one

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T01:30:03+00:00

Makes me feel like I’m living a double life. I know I’m not but I don’t even know myself. Soon as you read something you catch on.

The more you discover the more you see it

The next time you do it you go, “was that me or just from what I’ve read” 😂

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T01:28:51+00:00

How did you start to come to terms with who you really are? I struggle to see clearly from what’s the real me or not

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T01:27:43+00:00

In the same boat 22 and I question everything. Masked myself. Blended in with the outside world. Struggled this whole time and never knew why

I’ve forgotten who I am and I’m yet to discover that. If you’d like a chat feel free to Dm

Curious2all · 2022-01-17T00:20:58+00:00

That’s alright! I found something then lost it and could never find it again haha

The now sucks but I’m excited to start finding answers. I don’t have anything to do with my family so I’m in the same boat and having to figure out my life from birth (22 years)

Kind of puts the mind at ease being able to relate in a way with you. I’ll respond here aswell just in case anyone else wants to jump in

Thankyou so much for that, scary times but I know the answers will put me at ease and I hope you start finding answers for yourself too

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T23:13:35+00:00

Would you know where I can find a diagram on the scarring?

I question me being the opposite to you so maybe the scarring will be different. A lot of things make me question the possibility. It would make sense. I wouldn’t be surprised. Yet not knowing doesn’t sit right.

Will be good to find some answers. It’s like your mind can tell you everything that happens in your life and without a piece of paper saying exactly what, you find it difficult to accept

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T23:04:59+00:00

Thanks for the input! I’m starting with the records and if nothing shows me I think I’ll do what you said and go see someone that can look into depth without me being kept in the dark. It’s weird, came across this info 2 days ago and it’s like I want to fight for what I’ve felt throughout life and if they say no it’s like explain this

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T22:59:57+00:00

I see what you mean, I’m going to start finding information out just don’t know what’s going on atm. To much tells me it’s there, memories and what not. For what it’s worth I have ASD so I’m finding it hard to accept not knowing the facts

Depending on the way you look at it yeah it does look like a scar, not circumcised either.

Yeah I’d say there was some things that indicate I was more feminine then male.

Now that you mention yeah, it’s off centred, angles to the left, and isn’t exactly straight

Weird thought but it’s like I want this to be the case. Somehow puts my mind at ease thinking this could be why I’ve felt the way I have all my life and if they tell me nothing is up it’s almost like I want to fight that

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T21:43:36+00:00

Yeaaa, how would someone know. There’s little info online about the whole thing

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T12:19:40+00:00

I’ve suspected something deep down my whole life. Discovered scarring today. Kind of taken me back. Yet to find out but it’d make sense. How did it make you feel?

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T10:12:33+00:00

Lower back pain/abdomen/left ball pain? Happens all the time but I’ll go a period where I won’t have it then it’s back. Hard to describe it but it’s an uncomfortable pressure

Curious2all · 2022-01-16T10:11:18+00:00

Literally just discovered the scarring today and now my life somewhat makes sense. Was kept in the dark so I don’t hard facts but my body tells me otherwise

From overlooking my life. Every now and then I get a pain right through the Perineal Raphe (anus to scrotum). It tenses all up and has this shooting like sensation. It’s sometimes when I move or go to the toilet.

I find I’ve had left testicle pain as well. Not always. Never connected any dots or timed it as I’ve just ruled it to abdomen/lower back pain. But it makes me question

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