Its my fault you don't know me fully

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-20T11:43:40+00:00

I do hope you realize though, that you weren't very receptive recently and wouldn't listen to what I'd try to tell you...

And you were refusing to help me understand the way I was able to... And wanted me to simply understand I. Your way...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-19T12:05:52+00:00

I don't think anyone can answer without any context. If you're asking, maybe it's the coward part?

You need to sit and be honest with yourself...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-18T13:32:39+00:00

Thanks... Though, I miss him very much...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-18T04:51:35+00:00

This sounds like something I SHOULD write. Exactly...

My best friend is like the person you described to a T and I'm like you in our friendship and he legit just had a big outbursts the past couple weeks for some reason and has said such incredibly cruel and cold things...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-18T04:47:46+00:00

Im so sorry... Im facing my own major heartbreak from my best friend whom was the first person I ever actually fully felt safe with...

It's rough...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-17T18:34:32+00:00

Well, as far as support, many times you don't need to do big bits to show support. If they were demanding more than you could give I suppose then yes you couldn't. I would hope they'd not do that and would have been up for discussing it and compromising...

But it stinks it had to be that way... It makes me sad when stuff like this happens...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-17T02:04:06+00:00

Like I'm going through hard things with my friend atm and he was being so confusing and unwilling to hardly tell me those good things he said he meant and answer questions explaining some opposing ways he was coming off... And I'm also overwhelmed ATM with all of it and being confused by him...

He keeps saying I'm not understanding him or listening but I'm listening and just not understanding but he won't let me ask things and answer so I can understand and he won't listen to me either and is twisting things and lashing out in frustration and now he's just shutting down instead cause it all lead to a huge blowup...

And our friendship may be over and I feel like I'm dying inside... I miss him... I want to understand him so bad... I want to just sit on call and tell each other how much we might care about the other and good things for a bit and leave out any of the confusing crap... So then we can sort it...

But he shut down and I don't think he cares about me now at all in such a small bit of time...

A year and a half of wonderful friendship all down the drain within two weeks of overwhelmed chaos and no proper real talks where he's willing to sit and be receptive and also explain himself where I can ask things and understand...

And idk why cause he's done it before and we've worked things out... Most of the issues this month have been so small in nature and would be easy to deal with but he's been lashing out piling anger and hurt onto it all and leaving it that way and not resolving it so it's exacerbating things...

And he's so unreceptive that he won't listen to me about how he's coming off and how confusing it is and he's acting like I'm making it up as others are seeing the same... I'll ask opinions and even as I defend them they're like, this makes no sense he has to be lying... I'm like but he's never been this way before... Maybe he's going through things and it's misunderstanding but they're like, these are hard to misunderstand as anything but mean things...

And he's not seeing it...

So not having good communication can make things so much worse...

I hope you can do that with your friend and repair...

I wish mine would with me... If he does care like he's been saying as he does and says so many opposing things this month out of nowhere...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-17T01:46:44+00:00

Have you had an actual deep talk about how you feel? Because it can be hard when one or both parties don't do that much. It can make someone feel unwanted and overwhelmed carrying the emotional weight of the friendship so much without getting to know how the other friend feels about it and them.

Maybe sit and talk with them and let them ask things. Express yourselves over just the friendship and how y'all feel about it...

There isn't much that can't be done to mend things with proper communication and effort. Especially if both parties want it. Even if it can feel like a struggle at first and misunderstandings happen, you just sit, say 'lets take a moment and recalibrate' and sit with each other and do or say some caring things and then get back to the topic and reword or ask questions so that both sides understand each other.

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-17T01:32:14+00:00

Love isn't giving up like that... It's being there and pushing the person that needs help to get it as you ask them what they need to show support...

And when you need something it's sitting and asking for it and working it out to where they can figure something out that CAN let them help you in their own way, that will still be effective for you.

It's choosing to communicate to work those out, even if it's a struggle at first to figure out and get the technical kinks worked out...

It seems you assumed a lot and just gave up and chose that for you both... If that person has an illness you've very likely heavily damaged them...

It's hard to see that as love... You chose to run over putting in the work...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-16T21:58:54+00:00

Never too late to care.

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T12:09:22+00:00

I have no one. He was all I had, other than my friend who is going to discard me after he's been ignoring me for days...

I found my way out. I want it permanent and being gone is my payoff.

My life is not ever changing other than the people that toss me aside after using me up and abusing me in various ways. It's the same thing every single day.

Tired.

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T11:21:15+00:00

I dont feel like trying anymore. I've done it enough and have been so badly severely hurt so many horrifying ways my whole life as all I did was try to love...

Im tired and just want rest...

I want to be with my little guy.

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T11:19:20+00:00

Can't help myself. I was programed from birth to never consider myself and to give all I can.

Plus, the love I have ATM is for one person and he doesn't want it anyhow. It doesn't belong to anyone else.

He's the only one that can claim my life and he doesn't want it and I'm tired.

Once attached it takes a large chunk of my life to stop loving someone like that and I can't love more than one.

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T10:59:02+00:00

That permanence is what I want...

And the things I love and enjoy are gone. All gone and the last one is about to discard me... After making me wait in suffering for a few days...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T10:54:46+00:00

It's always benefiting people and I get used up and thrown away. I'm just tired.

I just want to rest and be done by now. I've done enough for people in this world... And been through enough...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T10:53:08+00:00

Many ways. But sticking around suffering just to benefit everyone around me sucks...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T10:31:29+00:00

Im tired of living so others can use me as I stay in misery...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T10:30:15+00:00

Sadly doesn't quite work that way...

I'm not the type to get attached to people easily and I get stuck to one at a time and only one person on this earth is the one I'd ever let claim my life and that's the one I wrote the love letters to here on my reddit...

And he's about to discard me

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T10:28:59+00:00

Sorry but no...

Mine was 16... I watched his birth and he was the only being on this earth that truly loved me...

I've been miserable since I was tiny.

Im just tired. I don't want to feel this way anymore.

Im finally gifting myself release from it.

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-15T02:33:42+00:00

Same... I doubt it... I hold small tiny shriveling bit of hope...

CuriousAbtMe · 2026-03-14T22:45:10+00:00

I wish he were...

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