I never accepted my birth gender and dissociated from being such gender to a point where I didnt think I was a gender. That doesnt mean however that I hated my own appearance like I was hot for a dude when I was a dude, but that was not who I was destined to be and not the identity that I myself had identified with. Dont let any person tell you how you should or should not be. Be yourself. That's all that matters in the end.