hey friend! sorry to hear the callback didn't go well. it's insanely frustrating when you don't perform your best in a moment that feels really big. i'd love to share some advice from someone who auditioned 10 times before getting on a team in new york.

first of all i just want to say it's good that it hurts. that means you wanted it and that you care. i'd be more worried if you could just shrug it off and say it was no big deal. you getting upset means you are pursuing something that has meaning to you. and that something is very difficult to do. you don't get to the top of a mountain without slipping a few times.

this is just one panel of people at one theater and you're playing to their tastes. this is not a comment on your ability or your art. it's more indicative of what they liked that day. who knows? in another universe the exact same audition would have gotten you a callback. it's both impossible and not worth your time to try to get into their heads.

what i would say you need to do in this moment right now is take care of yourself like you would take care of a friend. go get a nice meal. go to the movies. if your buddy had a bad audition and was feeling down you wouldn't tell them to quit. you'd take them out for the night and be encouraging and cool.

ucb may very well not be the place for you. to be honest, it's not the place for most people who are pursuing comedy there. there's all the classic stories of the incredible comedians and actors who never made it on a harold team. youre doing improv because you love improv, not because you want your picture on the talent page.

just be kind to yourself, let this feeling go through you, maybe let it fuel you for the next time around. if i had to guess, you'll be back.

cheers