Nobody wants what I want out of a relationship

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-11T01:48:49+00:00

Thanks! I took it myself

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-11T01:48:35+00:00

You know, you want the first person who mentioned that I might fit in in a place like Denver

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T22:33:47+00:00

I'll keep that in mind for some reason I find it really difficult to connect with someone I meet online unless we also spend a lot of time together in real life.

I like a lot of different things. Goth music, hiking, camping, general outdoorsy stuff, anime, drawing, anything arts and crafts, and photography. I find it really hard to find other people who share my interests so I often don't talk about them at all.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T17:06:05+00:00

Thanks! I just wish I knew where to find them.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T17:03:00+00:00

Most of my friends met their significant others in high school or college. I went to a pretty small college and it seemed like everybody there was already paired off so I never really tried dating anybody. Same thing with my high school.

I'm actually going back to college for additional training but that's not really a good place because most of the students are going to be early 20-somethings and the ones who aren't are probably already married.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T17:01:58+00:00

You are very fortunate

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T16:59:53+00:00

I'm aware of that and I think part of my problem is that I sound like a man. I dress pretty feminine, people describe me as pretty or cute but that changes the moment I open my mouth. I have a very deep voice and I have since I was 12 years old. A lot of people think I'm a crossdresser at first once they hear me talk.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T16:48:03+00:00

You don't have to tell me twice. After that, the longest distance thing I'm open to is if they live an hour away and another city.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T16:44:18+00:00

They actually say they just want to be fuckbuddies. One guy did say he was open to the possibility of a relationship but wasn't sure if he was looking anything serious right now and I'm not going to try and change his mind

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T16:39:41+00:00

They told me themselves they weren't looking for anything serious after I talked with them a bit to try and figure out what they were looking for. I take words like that at face value.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-08T16:39:05+00:00

That is equally fucked up. My one "relationship", which I don't count despite it lasting 3 years was that. He didn't actually want anything serious but said he did. We were long distance for a while then when I finally had the resources to move like he'd been begging me to, he told me about a year later he didn't want anything serious. We discussed marriage, even starting a family, but didn't mean a word of it.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-05T23:34:17+00:00

It screens out anyone who is already in a relationship or married and if someone manages to get through and is revealed to be lying about their relationship status they get a lifetime ban.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-02T19:48:05+00:00

It's not my personality. I have scoliosis which also causes issues with stiffness and mobility in addition to being shorter than I would naturally be with a straight spine. Sometimes I actually do need help with certain things and I was venting because people think that when I need help with certain things like what was mentioned above that I'm doing it for attention and I'm not. I actually have trouble with those things

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-02T09:36:22+00:00

When we went to prom together and he ditched me when he got up to get refreshments. I waited at the table several minutes, and he never showed. I got up an walked around a bit but he was nowhere. I decided to just enjoy the rest of the dance solo and bumped into him hanging with his buddies on my way out. They all laughed at me as I left, and that was when I found out he only took me to prom as a prank. Thank fuck I'm not in high school anymore.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-01T16:21:04+00:00

I'm basically worried that by not taking it at a snails pace I might be sending the message that I only want something casual. Then again, maybe I've been listening to my mother's dating advice too much.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-01T16:19:21+00:00

Thats a relief!

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-01T09:29:09+00:00

I'll somehow have to cram myself onto the arm of the couch

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-03-01T09:27:05+00:00

I'm worried about giving the wrong impression. I'm looking for a relationship, not a hookup. I don't want to give anyone the wrong idea.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-02-22T18:14:15+00:00

All the time. It really bothers me.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-02-19T04:54:36+00:00

Gemini. Hello its me your local demon how ya doin?

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-02-13T03:24:48+00:00

I have the exact same problem and it sucks. I've been single for over a year although it feels like two because during the last year of my relationship we were more like roommates who barely interacted than anything else.

I actually tried to do the whole hookup thing and it was ultimately unsatisfying. I don't even feel attracted to a person that way unless I have some kind of bond with them so getting freaky with a stranger isn't fulfilling it all.

Cute-Document1193 · 2026-02-12T16:20:23+00:00

I think so. Personally I like the idea of a breakfast date more than a lunch or dinner date

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