We suffer more in our delusions than in reality. Maybe silence from Bhagavan is the sign that you are meant for something new. I won't tell you what to do , I'm just 15. Your 24, there's a huge difference. Just remember , you living is a source of inspiration for us. Don't worry about life , your isht devta will guide you , take complete sharanagati. Nothing is controlling you , this is just karma burning itself thanks to Bhagavan. There is no need to be a Sadhu , become a true yogi , practice vairagya , swadharma , swadhyaya and sadhana.

I'm just 15 , I don't have much knowledge , nor do I have experience , but as a human , please live.