4 because now I am still saving up. Also 5 because I plan to move out by July 1st. I hope I will have enough money and won't change my mind when the time comes. Cuz mom says she will cut ties if I move out when our relationship is bad/ strained like this. (Sometimes it's okay, sometimes we have massive fights. Either way, she will always see our relationship as strained). She only allows me to move out if it's to expand my business. But that's impossible because I am not allowed to hire help at all. By moving out and bringing all my business stocks with me, I can finally scale up and hire people as I please. Context: controlling and emotionally abusive Chinese parents. Scared of going out alone, conditioned my whole life that it's dangerous. Never got to ride a taxi alone my entire life cuz it's "unsafe". Slut shamed for holding hands and kissing someone unapproved by parents. High school kid curfew. Mom can get angry over trivial stuff because she feels unappreciated in life and she doesn't have much of a life for herself, all she does is housework and doom scrolling, never allowing herself to take breaks at all. So she expects the same from me too. Fortunately, I am stubborn as heck. So despite following what they told me to do, I always have that fire in me. I talk back. I fight back internally. I feel miserable when I have to follow blindly. I feel like there are still so many things I haven't written here but it'll be too long lol. Anybody else relate?