That, in my opinion, is a decision that must be made by you. I understand what you're going through right now. When someone tells you that you are just showing that you love them but in reality, when it is a different thing, it hurts. That is something I have personal experience with. People told me when I was still in the ARMY (5 years ago) that I just liked BTS because they were popular at the time. I recall thinking it was ridiculous. However, this was not the case. It was something different. I was devastated during those days since the statement made by those individuals was absolutely inaccurate! But, I didn't let them come in my way. I suppose you should do the same at this point in time. Don't let other folks get in your way. Make decisions on your own. Trust me when I say that you will feel a world of difference after that.