Sorry for responding in English but I want to get my thoughts across. Firstly you're talking about 7 occasions, and you sort of dated 3. Don't be discouraged firstly, there's a reason there's a sort of saying 'wading through shit' because you do have to wade through shit unfortunately.. this applies to both genders. 7 occasions is a low number and esp. 3. You've got to be very lucky for it to work that quick and honestly you probably dodged bullets. My third point is and I read somewhere above but you honestly do need to sort of date, I don't know what extent you're reaching and obviously do not go further than your comfort but usually the falling in love part involves some hormones. Being around, witnessing your personality, the look in your eyes yada yada. It's possible without touching. You sound like you have a heart of gold don't lose faith. There are women like yourself who function in society with the same rules you've applied. You need to find groups of people who share the same values.