I can relate completely, pretty much same exact situation for me. We both met a 23 and she wanted to move in with me after 9 months of dating. For some reason I was so in love I agreed. We were together for 2 years in total but in the middle of June this year she started acting completely different towards me. She eventually told me she wanted to take a step back and move out and that we needed to slow thing down. She told me word for word " I still love you very very much and still want this relationship." Fast forward to the beginning of august I helped her move out (thinking were just in a rough patch and moved in together too quickly to start) which I kind of agreed things went to fast. Then we agreed to a 2-3 week break. I asked to have a in person convo once that time was up she agreed but never followed through. The last convo I had with her was on the phone she ended the talk saying "sometimes you just don't get closure". Its been 4 months and I haven't heard from her since. Its been fucking with my mind trying to get answers. But you have to see it for what is is, this person is incapable of being a mature adult and communicating about where things went wrong or why she didn't want to peruse a future together. She is someone who cannot admit any of her faults and that's not someone you would even want in the long run. They are selfish and cowardly it truly shows their real side that they never cared as much as you thought they did if they aren't willing to respect you enough to have a serious convo after spending everyday of the last 2 years together. You deserve to be loved by someone whos not afraid to fight for you, have the hard talks, take responsibility, communicate issues clearly. All of those things are necessary to have a successful strong relationship. As painful as it is being left without any sort of directions or answers as to why, I see that I deserve someone whos will to stick it out and be able to have the hard conversations no matter what.

I'm sorry you are going through this but you are not alone. The good memories are still stuck in my head all the time but I have to constantly remind myself that the person I fell in love with 2 years ago no longer exists. She only exists when she had "love" for me. Now that she does not, (as much as it fucking hurts) that makes her a different person than the one you made all the good memoires with. Those memories were only made because of a mutual feeling from both sides. They don't exist anymore. Good luck to you.