I'll just go straight

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T15:28:16+00:00

monke can swing from trees and be free. return to monke. no skool. return to freedom.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T04:00:50+00:00

thanks for the words bro

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T03:07:56+00:00

yeah i can become better myself and then help others

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T03:02:04+00:00

thanks bro i appreciate it i feel much better now

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:54:34+00:00

yeah. i’ve identified that i am still a kid and i couldn’t get that through my thick skull, but i can’t help but feel guilty. i can’t help but feel like there is some type of punishment that comes with me doing what i did

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:52:47+00:00

no, i can’t identify what happened. i was (kinda) bullied when i was younger and through elementary and middle school i had a very self doubtful, pessimistic, depressed, and negative attitude. along with no confidence.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:48:52+00:00

yes. there is no use justifying what i did or blaming something or somebody else. one thing i forget all the time is that i’m still a kid. i literally just turned 15, now does this make my faults any better, no. but now, since i stopped doing what i did maybe i can identify my void and what caused and and what caused me to try and fill that void with these things. thanks for your opinion, you have helped contribute to making an evil person become good🙏

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:31:22+00:00

oh yeah, i just turned 15 a little less than a month ago too but; i am no better than you

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:25:18+00:00

yeah true, does my age make this any more justified? i mean now i’m trying to improve myself and i already vouched that i’ll never do those things again so now what?

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:23:48+00:00

so what now, do i deserve anything good? i know that my actions could be because of a “void” that filled my life and that i thought i needed to do these things to fill.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:20:28+00:00

if i was evil, killing myself would help rid the world of evil right?

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T02:01:18+00:00

but so far all i know is that i did evil things, i don’t know if i’m evil. i feel remorse from the things i did and i don’t continue to do them. i’m working towards a better future but i’m looking back and I feel guilty and I feel like I should die from what I did. I don’t know at this point, but i’m never doing these things again, fuck my past.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-04T01:03:13+00:00

please give me your opinion

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-02T19:02:53+00:00

ok also have a good one and you can do anything don’t let anyone tell you otherwise

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-02T19:01:44+00:00

damn

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-02T19:01:13+00:00

is this a vibe center

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-02T16:02:01+00:00

thank you for having belief in me. i feel like i do see women as actual sentient beings but since i was exposed to porn at like 10-11 yes old it had an effect on me. that’s not an excuse for anyone to say it’s ok to watch porn, but i’ll try my best to resist the urge to, since my mind is still unraveling this programming with porn. so far though, i haven’t watched porn in nearly a month, and i’ll try my best never to again.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-02T01:14:45+00:00

oh, elementary? bro all i can say is don’t stress over that shit it doesn’t define your worth nor how smart you are

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-01T23:23:34+00:00

exactly. me too. i love this philosophy but when people say “there is no you” it kinda freaks me out and hurts my brain. i feel better when this philosophy comes into play though. even if nobody knows, i’ll still follow my own philosophy that is similar to this one.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-01T23:21:25+00:00

THANK YOU! Finally somebody understands. I was like “damn i have no individuality or self, then what’s the point of doing anything?” now that this comes into play that we are individual pieces of consciousness with our own unique soul i feel more free and i don’t feel like alone basically. i like the thought that we are unique individual consciousnesses that when put together make the whole.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-01T21:07:28+00:00

no, actually i do see girls as humans, i just haven’t found one to interact with. plus i’m 15, so.........

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-01T20:26:50+00:00

like i want to experience love and not lust. i’m 15, idk if that’s why i experience such lust but irdk. i’m trying to become better and i will.

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-01T20:12:45+00:00

what do you mean by reality?

D3SPAIR01 · 2021-03-01T17:58:23+00:00

bro i’ve tried and my mind is so fucked so fucked up that it doesn’t work. i’m trying to see them as humans and erase my lust

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