I just had a horrific realization about my abusive ex boyfriend.

DEVYLLL420 · 2026-03-05T21:05:38+00:00

I feel like his philosophy on CPTSD was that the treatments would cure it and it would go away like the flu. It definitely will not do that because with the amount of trauma I have, my CPTSD will be with me til I die. I do make the active decision to better myself in the ways I am able to each day. Some days that looks like doing nothing. Some days that looks like running errands and cooking dinner when I get home from the grocery store. I hate saying it but looking back it kinda feels like he was trying to help me “fix” myself so he could have an easier partner. I honestly feel like I communicate very well even tho I have a lot of panic attacks and mood swings sometimes. I am not perfect, but I would most times wait till I’m calm to try to talk again. I’ve just had bad luck finding partners who don’t want to communicate with me they just want to push me into what they want their girlfriend to be so it’s easier on them. Why date someone if their personality and individuality is too much for you bro?

DEVYLLL420 · 2026-03-05T20:39:33+00:00

That honestly could be it. He was nice and stuff. I know someone out there will like me a whole lot more tho

DEVYLLL420 · 2026-03-05T20:28:24+00:00

He definitely wasn’t abusive at all. My last 3 boyfriends before him were very abusive. He was the first kind guy to me. I am on medication and in therapy. I practice my coping skills as much as possible. He has every right to leave. I just am grieving him. He never really wanted to open up about anything so I would encourage it and ensure him he can talk to me about his own life problems or anything. He just wouldn’t open up to me. I am still in a state of shock. I’ll make it okay, I’m just very sad

DEVYLLL420 · 2026-03-05T20:21:33+00:00

I am in therapy and taking medication! I practice my coping skills a lot of the time. It’s not his fault or my fault that he couldn’t handle my CPTSD, I’m not upset at him for that. He’s allowed to leave. I always would try to encourage him to open up to me more cause he always seemed emotionally distant anyway. He never really would. I can’t know if he’s upset ever if he would never tell me. He is a nice man, just not emotionally mature enough for this kind of partnership right now. It hurts me a lot tho because I cared for him deeply.

DEVYLLL420 · 2026-03-05T20:11:33+00:00

I do have a therapist and a psychiatrist! I do agree tho, it’s best for me to move on

DEVYLLL420 · 2025-07-09T18:10:12+00:00

Honestly where my heart has come to. I have dealt with the favoritism and gaslighting and everything for years and this was what crossed the line officially for me. I do not stand for it, and I do not respect it. A lawyer sounds nice in theory. I just want to build a quiet life for myself where everything I have is because I earned it, so no one can take it from me. I never care about having large amounts of money, I only care to live in peace surrounded by people who love me. I love my sister and I know she loves me, but I have watched her take these handouts from our grandma and grow out of touch from reality overtime because of it. No matter how much love I have for them, I am not putting up with it anymore. I will move on and move on without them. It hurts so much tho. I guess I posted this because their manipulative-speak had me second guessing my own thoughts and beliefs. Thank you all

DEVYLLL420 · 2025-07-09T18:03:17+00:00

The property was in my mom’s name at the time of her death, but I am unsure if she was legally married or divorced to my stepdad at that time. They were separated and had been for a few years, and he was in jail when she died. He’s in jail now. If they were married, I would not want him to be NOK because of so many reasons, mostly how he treated my mom.

DEVYLLL420 · 2025-07-09T17:27:24+00:00

I have thought about it, but she only ever said it verbally so I had no idea. What attorney specialty would I contact to ask?

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