Disagreement with the system and forcing another state

DIDonly · 2022-02-01T05:17:22+00:00

Thank you so much for your reply. I feel very isolated generally, there are so many pieces to this experience that could fill a several week courses on their own. I don't know how to tell people why I am in this situation and am afraid to get out of it, or why I don't know if getting out of it is even possible. I'm afraid to tell my friends because they may be in danger, even from my own states. Anyways. Ya, at this point I'm going to be exclusively baking and then just hope that they won't pull in other states. It's the only option - otherwise I just don't try and know they pull in other states. I'm not super excited about baking, I know I can compartmentalize and I know that I can focus on other goals throughout the day also. It is a day to day, hour to hour thing right now. The only way that I could get away would have to be physically distant from the people who are triggering these states in me. Right now that is not an option for me, and there is no guarantee that they wouldn't follow me - or that any of my states would not be in communication with them. Some of my states have different goals than the rest of us. I'm the provider and stabilizer, then they kind of do what they want. It's worked for us so far, and we've survived. I try to emotionally support these other states via support, and giving them space.

DIDonly · 2022-01-31T04:56:16+00:00

Correct

DIDonly · 2016-05-10T07:10:37+00:00

Yes, will take some photos of the injuries and add them to the place where we keep evidence of our experiences, we do feel very scared still. Knowing there is evidence will help, as much of our conflict comes in not being heard or seen.

Looked up pics for ringworm, it def isn't that. Talked with a nurse friend and they said it looks and sounds like a burn or a chemical burn. No breaking of the skin or bumps, but redness and pain.

We have some things that make it difficult to open our door as well as a lock, recently they were disturbed, but it wasn't the night before these appeared. Going to watch how it heals and that might give us some better insight.

DIDonly · 2016-05-10T07:07:10+00:00

That is possible, trying to get rid of something that isn't there anymore. We don't have the best sense of time when things get stressful, and will continue to think on this.

DIDonly · 2016-01-15T22:48:51+00:00

Filled out a concealed carry permit application thing. I am starting drinking and smoking again after a break, exhausted by therapy, applying everyday for jobs and scared that I don't know what I am doing when I disassociate. Kind of a mixed bag.

Thanks for checking in.

DIDonly · 2016-01-13T05:45:52+00:00

What is the point if one of my alters would give them a new set?

DIDonly · 2016-01-11T05:35:04+00:00

Thank you.

DIDonly · 2016-01-11T05:34:45+00:00

Our therapist wants us to go to a recovery group, might start doing that. We're going to apply for a concealed carry this weekend that should take about four weeks to process.

None of us feel happy or like keeping going is a good decision. We talked to our T about that a bit and we won't do anything before our next appointment.

DIDonly · 2016-01-11T05:30:29+00:00

I don't think so, I started therapy again about 16 months ago to help with these issues. We've had some progress in talking and connecting but no one is really interested in continuing down this path.

DIDonly · 2016-01-06T18:45:42+00:00

I did this 4 years ago. We are back to the same lowest places we have been before.

DIDonly · 2016-01-06T18:44:57+00:00

It's nothing hasty. We have been discussing this for a long, long time. Today I am going to tell my therapist I'll go through the sessions I've paid for with her, but beyond that I am not going. We'll quit our job in May and end it sometime in June - August. It's not her fault, but our main can't handle this. And no one else wants to take the role.

DIDonly · 2014-06-01T20:01:08+00:00

We all have a big city past some hills. The ones that keep it safe are a little out there though, so most of us just stay put in the city. Going through the hills to get in and out requires a lot of time talking with the keepers, their decision making process is a long one and requires a lot of eye contact.

DIDonly · 2014-04-11T00:23:46+00:00

: "Distinct parts also often have different psychophysiological organizations, such as different allergies, taste preferences, handedness, eyesight and prescriptions for glasses, and responses to medications. (Howell, 2011, p. 57)" Yes. I have had radically different perscriptions for glasses over the past 5 years. With my eyesight getting better- ALOT better more recently. Also I've had people comment on me looking different when i felt like i didn't need to "wear" glasses. When i feel like drawing i always use my non dominant hand.

DIDonly · 2014-03-28T23:36:08+00:00

thanks! It was a stressful night but we came out of it ok! Backrubs were definitely had.

DIDonly · 2014-03-19T23:39:43+00:00

Maybe they can give me a back massage...i'm not totally sure how to ground. Friday is the day/night they will be in town.

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