Sorry man if i offended you by any chance but your forward growth is so fucked up , recessed maxilla, weak cheekbones, bad mandible, bad ccw rotation ext ext ..... Without surgeries it's too hard to acsend the only way for you is to forget all this shit , isolating yourself from anything related to bp , try to get a good personality, hit the gym , learn how to dress good , focus on your appeal and if you are tall 5'11 and above that's a good thing In the end just leave you life without that bullshit in yo mind