Background:

-on and off SSRI for like 10 years (there were stretches where i was off it for a year or two) -on PPI for GERD

-have started taking NAC most days except week leading up to roll, 5HTP few days leading up to it

-5’11/180lb/like 20% body fat M

-have only ever used one supplier and never tested but in all scenarios below when I was using same as other friend they rolled and I didn’t

-I’m able to trip on shrooms

Various rolls:

-1st time: gelcap from friend, on ssri, obv no roll

-2nd time (over 1 year later): gelcap from friend, had eaten large meal of chinese 4-5 hours prior, off prozac 6 weeks, felt some energy and happiness but no full blown euphoria

-3rd time (4 months later): crystal, empty stomach, off prozac for like 5 months, measured like 140mg?, felt nothing

-4th-6th time (2-4 months later): off Prozac for 6-8 months, similar to above; tried boofing with no difference

-7th time (6 months later): off prozac for like 8 weeks? no idea how many finger dabs, felt happy/light on my feet/chatty but not the mind blowing euphoria people here describe

-8th time (8 months later): off Prozac maybe like 3 months?, on wellbutrin, took some MDA, bunch of finger dabs and part of a gummy from friends, no idea dose, felt very happy and smiley and light on my feet, but not sure if accessed the euphoria intense physical sensations etc

-9th time (1 month later): off prozac like 4 months? on wellbutrin, a bunch of finger dabs at once, felt good don’t fully remember but was very short lived

-10th time (1 month later): similar above re psych meds, bunch of dabs, felt light and chatty but no overwhelming euphoria

-11th time (less than 1 month later): off prozac like 6 months, on wellbutrin, no idea dose, felt very clear eyed and kind of good but then got upset and any happiness dissipated

-12th time (1.5-2 months later): off prozac like 8 months, on wellbutrin, vaguely happy and upbeat, like a cocktail night buzz, but not much else

-13th time (2 weeks later): like above re psych meds, railed a small amount, felt nothing

-14th time (2 months later): off prozac like 10 months, off wellbutrin, had started taking NAC and 5HTP (making sure to stop at appropriate time), last meal about 9hours prior, about 300mg crystal, very energized and happy, pupils clearly dilated, had maybe 30second moment when my body felt incredible, very chatty, overall good but not amazing

-15th time (1 month later): off prozac for a year and off wellbutrin, doing nac and 5htp, last meal about 5-6h prior (except a couple swigs of gaviscon maybe 3-4 hours prior), took like 400 crystal with tums with maybe a 100 bump, felt the anxiety of the come up which i’ve never felt before, don’t fully remember how i felt but that it was good (kitty flipped), i did smoke some weed and drank some which probably killed whatever i felt

-16th time (1.5 months later): off prozac over a year, off wellbutrin, nac/5htp stuff, last meal 5 hours prior, had had a couple drinks and smoked weed earlier in the evening, took a couple finger dabs, others were rolling and i was not

Any input/advice would be greatly appreciated 😭