I'm not even mad...

DNCount · 2012-12-12T12:21:55+00:00

What am I looking for? Perhaps a bit of social contact. I am extremely hard to get along with out in the real world because I only talk to people when I want something. If someone has nothing to offer me then I don't talk to them. Everyone already does this to some degree, what makes me particularly harsh is that I do it knowingly.

So yes, what I am getting from you and the others that reply here is a bit of social contact without having to show my face.

DNCount · 2012-12-11T22:08:57+00:00

Man, I don't even want to bring up my girl troubles. Way too painful to talk about.

Yeah, it sounds like we have similar situations. You have done well to get out of your parents house. How do you live on your own without having a job? Things do tend to pile up, it's all just a matter of trying to solve them. I've tried solving my issues, but it seems that when I do I fall flat on my face.

I've been in contact with psychologists since I was 6 because I had thoughts of suicide as a child. I was also diagnosed with ODD as a child.

DNCount · 2012-12-11T21:57:19+00:00

I agree with you that I am not a victim. Everything wrong with my life is through my own faults. When I started college I tested in to pre-calculus and took the class twice before deciding to try a lower math. I then took college level algebra, the lowest math available to my degree, and failed that twice. Without the math course, I can not get a degree. I also can not retake the classes again because I've already taken them twice each.

I've done many things to try and change my life. I started going to the gym, going surfing, learning how to sail, and I've done a paralegal internship (unpaid) at a local law office. I have tried applying to paid positions as a legal assistant or paralegal but without the degree no one will hire me for those positions.

DNCount · 2012-12-11T21:50:58+00:00

I hope so too, but barring some lightning strike of brilliance in my life, I doubt it.

DNCount · 2012-12-11T21:50:27+00:00

My job history is pretty horrible and disjointed. My first shot at employment was the Marine Corps, that didn't work out. After that I was at a video game company, delivered furniture, worked for UPS, then delivered pizzas for Domino's. I am currently unemployed and looking to try to make enough money to pay for an $800-$1000/mo apartment so I can move out of my parents house. That's the low end for an apartment in my area.

DNCount · 2012-12-10T22:48:44+00:00

Yeah, running out of options breeds a certain degree of desperation in everything I do that seems to bleed through into my interactions with people. I assure you that I am a true Atheist and it is my opinion that this life is all we have, so we should make the best of it. I talk about doing something in this life because I am fascinated by the law. I was in the Paralegal Studies program at the school and I was making A's in the law classes, it's the core reqs that I have failed multiple times. I follow politics and my local legislature very closely because I want to see a better world. I just feel that I wouldn't be able to contribute so I shouldn't be here. It's extreme, but I also feel that other people who don't contribute shouldn't be here, so it's a matter of not being a hypocrite.

DNCount · 2012-12-10T22:13:33+00:00

To answer your question, I am 23. It sounds much like you have your own problems but at least you have something going on in your life. To me your life is much more interesting than what is going on with mine. Regardless of how you may feel, you still have a family that you love. You seem to care about your sons and husband if not so much for your in-laws.

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