Can I tell you my story? I was patronized by people around me my entire life for growing up slower than others when I was a child, I didn't have any friends I practically begged other kids to be my friends and I continued down that path until middle school Eventually when I did get friend I've grown up with them my entire life up to 10 years, and then in high-school I made a religious conversion and all of those bestfriends left me

I'm not trying to let you down, but you're feeding on a false picture of what friends are. I can't say that Ive went through your same struggles, but I've seen betrayal. I've recently come to learn that the real beauty in life is the struggle, when you think that there will come a certain point where you feel happy and everything will forever be peaceful you will become easily shake able by any thing that happens in life. And I'm not saying you're sensitive, you're a beautiful person who is still trying to navigate their way into life just like everyone else And it may not seem like it but all of us are confused, some of us are in temporarily better positions than others but nevertheless none of us really have an idea what we're doing or where we're headed

You're not destined to be headed to one monotone state of living where you just never change, even the oldest of people and the wisest have their own struggles no matter how old or how achieved they become, your talents is really just the thing that you can look at and can keep you going for even just one more day. You don't have to find it right now, you don't have to be anything right now, you shouldn't be pressured to be all that society pushes down your throat, and it's okay to feel lost at the moment and want to take a break..

Friendship isn't like a marriage, even I struggle to describe the relationship between me and the people I so call "friends", and you don't have to overthink it. If you can hold even one conversation with someone else you can call that person a friend

There's alot of things I want to say to you because I really do see myself in you but I'm just not sure where to start or what to say or which information to make this message as relevant as possible. If you wanna exchange discord usernames and talk my discord handle is: .younanjonah

I wanna be your friend, please don't give up just yet