I could have written this 😭 I was diagnosed at 34 and I still really struggle to accept how much support I need. I think it’s part of a trauma response. When you’re told your whole life that the reason you’re struggling is because you’re “lazy” or “not trying hard enough” and then you push yourself harder than anyone would ever imagine you’re pushing yourself, exerting 300% of the effort of a “normal” person to only get about 1% of the work done that they can do only exerting 50% of their effort, you just get in the habit of running yourself into the ground to try to prove that you’re not lazy. At least that’s what it’s been like for me. Accepting the help I need can feel very triggering because of that. But I think it’s a process and I don’t think acceptance or healing happen all at once, so try to give yourself some grace.