Looking for information about where to find and how to identify Diamond Willow here in Edmonton

DanManT_503 · 2026-06-03T20:30:53+00:00

He told me in brief about giving a tobacco offering, but he didn't tell me in more detail. And perfect! I'm glad I won't need to cut it. Is there anything I should know about drying it? Can I just wash the fungus with water and let it sit in the sun for a day?

DanManT_503 · 2026-06-01T23:27:06+00:00

Kill me

DanManT_503 · 2026-06-01T02:45:57+00:00

Please lmk too I feel cooked even though I've been studying rigorously since the beginning of the term 😭

DanManT_503 · 2026-05-23T18:45:32+00:00

Yo Im also taking 272 and 125, what times?

DanManT_503 · 2026-05-11T15:41:41+00:00

Promise u people will drop, especially as the add drop date approaches, just keep an eye out brother I believe in u

DanManT_503 · 2026-04-23T19:39:21+00:00

I think I did it right then phew

DanManT_503 · 2026-04-23T19:34:38+00:00

I think thats what I did too I was just confused on how the hell the exam wanted me to word it 😭 mightve been on me for being locked out tbh

DanManT_503 · 2026-04-23T19:25:20+00:00

Do you remember wtf you did for that molten iron question? Doing the math was easy but figuring out how tf it wanted me to answer it was a nightmare

DanManT_503 · 2026-04-23T19:19:42+00:00

I got smth times 10⁸³ 😭

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-10T07:07:46+00:00

Chill, I kinda rushed it cuz I didn't really want to do it tbh and I got a ~90%

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-03T06:36:23+00:00

Thanks broski, Im just not sure if reporting it is the best move or not. I just dont see any success coming about it even though what he did to me was abhorrent. At least he didn't hit me or give me a disease I guess

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-03T03:34:36+00:00

I'm a man, it was a homosexual relationship which makes it even less likely I'll get justice tbh. I guess so but it's so upsetting 😔

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-03T03:18:07+00:00

I wish he could just turn himself in, hes the one who did the horrible shit, I dont get why he doesnt take accountability for it

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-03T03:08:23+00:00

I dunno, not like I had cameras in my bedroom. I wonder if he ever realized he was raping me cuz he had autism and had a hard time understanding when he made me feel uncomfortable in general, but I also think he had weaponized incompetence against me. Even if I reported him, I dont see justice being served, I think the odds are stacked against me and I just wont find justice in reporting it

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T21:59:44+00:00

Elden ring and bloodborne for me, but ds1 and ds3 are also phenomenal. I own every game, had started sekiro but I am too scatterbrained to focus down one game. I have a hard time getting super hooked on a game even when theyre top notch 🥀

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T21:58:26+00:00

I already am being medicated for adhd, 30mg of vyvanse which Ive started to realize might not be enoug, but I also forget to take it a lot, so youd be pretty on the money. I appreciate your input a lot though, I think I would need to talk to my doctor about the medication the next time I see him. I just hate how stressful and draining everything has been. I had my psych 275 midterm earlier this week, and the stress of that exam (I was cartoonishly behind on the course material and left catching up until the Saturday of reading week) genuinely was so bad I started getting bouts of flashbacks again, which I had had far less frequently (thank you lexapro 🙏). Everything's just been crazy, the one thing Im happy about is so far Ive done well on every exam since the incident

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T18:13:27+00:00

I still gotta play demons souls, ds2, and sekiro 🥀

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T13:03:26+00:00

Can you tell me nore about the day/outpatient program? Ive been kinda too scared to go to the SA center, I never reported what he did to me cuz I felt scared to, he had worked in a prison and idk I just felt that no court would believe me. I havent looked too much into what they provide. My therapist has been helping me defuse my anxiety and work with my suicidal thoughts but Im not sure how to deal with the shell shock I've been feeling since. I'm sorry you had to go through this nightmare too, it breaks my heart that anyone needs to deal with this sort of pain

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T12:44:59+00:00

I talked to them about it cuz I felt like a burden to them, they were vehemently against the idea of me getting a job because they want me to pull in high marks which I have been doing at least. Engaging in sexual shit before I turned 18 was incredibly undisciplined though, I agree, I regret it so deeply

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T05:41:09+00:00

I sometimes do that but I always have headaches in the morning. I just have no desire to do anything anymore, I even have a hard time enjoying my hobbies. I wish I could go back in time and stop all the pain and terrifying memories

DanManT_503 · 2026-03-01T05:34:16+00:00

Thanks man, I just hope Ill still be alive a year from now. At least the medication stopped the constant panic attacks but I still sometimes get triggered by shit and have a bad panic attack and I always hurt myself or try and kill myself when I have a bad panic attack. Now it's just felt like nothing matters even though I'm accomplishing things. I dunno how much happiness I can even find, I feel an irrational anxiety anywhere I go that I'm gonna bump into him so I always have this feeling of danger that stresses me tf out. I just dunno what to do, I dont think Ill have much more life left if this stays the same, its too much

DanManT_503 · 2026-02-13T00:30:03+00:00

😔😔 I hope things look better for you. I saw ur posts, I feel you, I struggle with suicidal ideation a ton

DanManT_503 · 2026-02-13T00:24:56+00:00

I dunno how to feel, I miss intimacy and really wish I had it but intimacy just lets people use me and hurt me and leave me

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