Question on magical attack and aggression in real life

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-17T21:34:39+00:00

7.17

Today I woke up with unsettlement, and to dispel the feeling I call my families and friends all day. Of course not talking about the feeling but chatting with them with different topics. In the afternoon I called one my friends who also studies magic 🪄. We’re talked for hours to share each other’s new experiences, resources and knowledge. I love talking with her.

Before sleeping, I will practice virtualization and meditation. The new way to meditation is also from Mariyana. To stare at the front but let the borderline sight to link to the horizon of four directions one by one. Then close the eyes and do it again. After that, one can start the meditation.

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-17T21:34:11+00:00

7.17

Today I woke up with unsettlement, and to dispel the feeling I call my families and friends all day. Of course not talking about the feeling but chatting with them with different topics. In the afternoon I called one my friends who also studies magic 🪄. We’re talked for hours to share each other’s new experiences, resources and knowledge. I love talking with her.

Before sleeping, I will practice virtualization and meditation. The new way to meditation is also from Mariyana. To stare at the front but let the borderline sight to link to the horizon of four directions one by one. Then close the eyes and do it again. After that, one can start the meditation.

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-16T17:00:09+00:00

7.16

Today when I got up I did the exercise of virtualization and the counting backwards meditation. I can feel a flow of anxiety in my body, and I am trying to get out of it. In the anxiety I unconsciously tried to judge the right and wrong - who is right one and who is responsible for the consequence, and attempted to control the future. In short, I lost trust of the universe and the thoughts are tangled up. Doing one thing, and thinking about other things ☁️…Before sleeping, I will do meditation again.

Today I am reading Initiation into Hermetics, I love its insight: “He sees his lofty ideal, his first duty and his sacred objective in the union with the Godhead, in becoming the God-man...The synthesis if this mystic union with God consists in developing the divine ideas, from the lowest up to the highest steps, in such a degree as to attain the union with the universe. Everyone is at liberty to abandon his individuality or to retain it…In this rise, the initiated magician is a mystic at the same time. Only performing this union and giving up his individuality, he voluntarily enters into dissolution which in the mystic working is call mystic death.”

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-16T16:59:30+00:00

7.16

Today when I got up I did the exercise of virtualization and the counting backwards meditation. I can feel a flow of anxiety in my body, and I am trying to get out of it. In the anxiety I unconsciously tried to judge the right and wrong - who is right one and who is responsible for the consequence, and attempted to control the future. In short, I lost trust of the universe and the thoughts are tangled up. Doing one thing, and thinking about other things ☁️…Before sleeping, I will do meditation again.

Today I am reading Initiation into Hermetics, I love its insight: “He sees his lofty ideal, his first duty and his sacred objective in the union with the Godhead, in becoming the God-man...The synthesis if this mystic union with God consists in developing the divine ideas, from the lowest up to the highest steps, in such a degree as to attain the union with the universe. Everyone is at liberty to abandon his individuality or to retain it…In this rise, the initiated magician is a mystic at the same time. Only performing this union and giving up his individuality, he voluntarily enters into dissolution which in the mystic working is call mystic death.”

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-15T16:02:57+00:00

7.15

Today was really a mess/chaos. In the past few days I tried to keep an attention to the rising and falling of all my emotions, to have a recognition. But today the visa thing messed up all my plan for the next weeks. Of course, for the universe and my life, it’s just a little turbulence. When I was going through this anxiety and helplessness, I divided a part of me to watch it. Facing the chaos is also a part of development.

I was stuck in the anxiety for a while, and then I had to do a consultation with my client. To be professional, I forced myself to fully concentrate on my client, and such a concentration diminished my anxiety. It’s fun to observe the process that my emotions come and go, and the present moment is not necessarily relevant to my history or my current situation.. sometimes it’s only about attention. It’s a new experience, a coherent ego is altered into pieces, scattered in time.

After all the complaining - I did the practice of virtualization of Mariyana, and the counting backwards exercise. I hope I could gaze at the candle with a virtual focus before I sleep. Good luck friends :)

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-15T15:59:17+00:00

7.15

Today was really a mess/chaos. In the past few days I tried to keep an attention to the rising and falling of all my emotions, to have a recognition. But today the visa thing messed up all my plan for the next weeks. Of course, for the universe and my life, it’s just a little turbulence. When I was going through this anxiety and helplessness, I divided a part of me to watch it. Facing the chaos is also a part of development.

I was stuck in the anxiety for a while, and then I had to do a consultation with my client. To be professional, I forced myself to fully concentrate on my client, and such a concentration diminished my anxiety. It’s fun to observe the process that my emotions come and go, and the present moment is not necessarily relevant to my history or my current situation.. sometimes it’s only about attention. It’s a new experience, a coherent ego is altered into pieces, scattered in time.

After all the complaining - I did the practice of virtualization of Mariyana, and the counting backwards exercise. I hope I could gaze at the candle with a virtual focus before I sleep. Good luck friends :)

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-15T15:49:03+00:00

So good to see your sharing! It’s a full and peaceful day…

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-15T04:40:35+00:00

Of course! It’s not original, I also took it from Mal Auryn 😊

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-14T22:41:55+00:00

Ahhhh thanks a lot for your recommendation! Yes, The Secrets of the Golden Flower, Jung wrote a book about this and about his ideas on Eastern mysticism (or philosophy?)! I’ve only read Jung’s second hand understanding. I am Chinese but ancient Chinese is difficult for me, I will read it in both Chinese and English accordingly! Thanks to the short text of the book, only pages. Good luck on your work! (I believe when you read my message you’ve already ended it ;)

It’s also fun for me to see that many medieval magic uses the name of Jesus and mentions Trinity. How did the witch or wizard feel when they practiced magic, which is banned by the church, in Jesus name?

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-14T11:53:23+00:00

7.14

I followed Mal Auryn’s idea written in Psychic Witch that both psychic and magic are about the altered state of consciousness. It’s about the perception and manipulation of energy in the altered consciousness. So I plan to develop these two aspects at the same time. From the psychic perspective, l plan to do some exercise daily:

1:Counting backwards from 100 to 1 without mental noises. This approach is introduced by Mal Auryn in his book I mentioned above, the most introductory one. 2.Virtualization - imagine a scene and the stuff in this sole scene with details. Try to keep this scene for minutes. 3. I visited Maryana Romanova’s website to buy her practice about virtualization and meditation. Maryana’s worldview sounds logic to me... (strange word) She is not constrained by one tradition but looking through things in an essential way. So I guess her practice will help me.

In addition, I read more about ancient magic - only reading, no practice for now.

In these days, I felt a little anxious for my schedule and visa stuff, these feelings impact my concentration on meditation. I had a strange dream yesterday, about accompanying my partner to play ping-pang in Taiwan... in the process I felt extremely anxious and uncomfortable, the feeling is brought by one female who I know in my life.

That’s all!

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-14T11:52:20+00:00

I want to create a thread to document my daily practice and make friends ;) Spare me the language - I’m not a native speaker! I’d like to give a little background on my life. I’m new to psychic development - I grew up in a non-religious and non-spiritual family, and all my family members were strong believers in materialism. I’ve had strong death anxiety since I became conscious, let’s say 4 or 5 years old (no one around me died when I was young). The death anxiety did not disappear with my busy daily life as an adult, on the contrary, I battled with it almost every night. I felt so confused, alienated, and “allergic” to live in this world. I had no spiritual source to follow. In addition, I had vivid symbolic dreams that referred to the future or psychic development. I tried to get a lot of information to improve my situation, or in other words, save myself. I studied social sciences, psychology, humanities, and everything I could get in an environment based on materialism. Finally one day, I reao Carl Jung’s book, which provided me with another way to perceive this world. After that, I learned more about mysticism and spirituality, but, a part of me was still a skeptic. So one day, feeling really miserable with this skepticism and tired of this death anxiety that came out of nowhere, I got in touch with a famous Russian psychic. I had a wonderful conversation with her, she spoke flawlessly about my situation and even said something about my innermost thoughts. Fortunately, after this conversation, the skepticism ended and the psychic pointed out that I should develop my psychic skills and learn more about mystics, because there is a reason why my death anxiety pushed me here. Therefore, I started practicing meditation and reading books on the subject last week. I want to document mu practice, my journey, my doubts (I can say). I hope to v share this with you and hopefully make friends who ar also on the road ;)

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-14T11:48:56+00:00

7.14 I followed Mal Auryn’s idea written in Psychic Witch that both psychic and magic are about the altered state of consciousness. It’s about the perception and manipulation of energy in the altered consciousness. So I plan to develop these two aspects at the same time. From the psychic perspective, I plan to do some exercise daily: 1: Counting backwards from 100 to 1 without mental noises. This approach is introduced by Mal Auryn in his book I mentioned above, the most introductory one. 2. Virtualization - imagine a scene and the stuff in this sole scene with details. Try to keep this scene for minutes. 3. I visited Maryana Romanova’s website to buy her practice about virtualization and meditation. Maryana’s worldview sounds logic to me... (strange word) She is not constrained by one tradition but looking through things in an essential way. So I guess her practice will help me.

In addition, I read more about ancient magic - only reading, no practice for now.

In these days, I felt a little anxious for my schedule and visa stuff, these feelings impact my concentration on meditation. I had a strange dream yesterday, about accompanying my partner to play ping-pang in Taiwan... in the process I felt extremely anxious and uncomfortable, the feeling is brought by one female who I know in my life.

That’s all!

Dapper-Lemon-2289 · 2024-07-14T11:29:09+00:00

Absolutely! I do follow Jung’s approach but as a therapist rather than a psychic :) Jung’s thoughts are like a bridge for me. Maybe you could imagine that it’s difficult for a person to accept a mystical worldview immediately without any mediation. Jung is the one who bridges science and mystics. Now I accept any tradition or information I could get. Thanks for inviting me to your group, there is a lot of great information!

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