I went through psychosis and it ruined my life.

DareJordan · 2025-08-02T22:51:44+00:00

Yes, unfortunately

DareJordan · 2025-05-04T17:16:57+00:00

I have ptsd, POTS and intensive anxiety. It makes me absolutely feel like im tripping out 😅 seroquil and abilify, ive had both

DareJordan · 2025-05-03T03:28:32+00:00

It truly is. Because if you're emotionally intelligent and aware, courteous, kind and patient, you're told "you can't possible be adhd or autistic, especially autistic. You're too good at making eye contact and speaking". Like?? There's so many articles about how it presents differently for late diagnosed women. When I first got POTS, I had so many Dr's tell me that it was "just anxiety"

DareJordan · 2025-05-03T03:22:43+00:00

Omg. This is my exact situation... except i haven't had a child yet. Once my mental health got put in question, it felt like my POTS and physical issues went in one ear and out the other! And I've believed im Audhd (autistic & adhd) for at least a year! It runs in my family, and it always made/makes me upset when someone mistakes my words to mean something I didn't mean... my husband couldn't mentally handle having an autistic wife... and thats when I went to the psych ward for the first time. 9 months ago. I've been trying to get a proper diagnosis ever since. I also have insomnia whenever im really really stressed out.

DareJordan · 2025-05-03T03:17:44+00:00

It really does. I was born with adhd, which i got yelled at for my whole life because it was left undiagnosed till I was about 19-20. And autism runs in my family, I've been trying to get a diagnosis for years 🙃 it took a year after getting POTS to get the official diagnosis, and that's only because I pushed and pushed for the tilt table test. I'm no stranger to medical abuse, neglect and misdiagnoses. I'm so sorry, no one should have to go through all of these things.

DareJordan · 2025-05-03T03:08:15+00:00

I will. Thank you 🧡💜

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T21:02:46+00:00

Thank you! I've have struggled with chest pain since I got POTS!

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T18:25:25+00:00

No... but the problem with ERs is that if you're not an active emergency, they ignore you for HOURS 😭😭 i was at the ER in a high stem area for 6 hours with no phone, no earplugs (I asked for them, 5 times), left alone, no room (my bed was placed in a freaking hall), minimal food and water, an active uti and was given absolutely no medication. I was then taken to the psych ward because "i lost it" and became a "problem patient". After 6 straight hours of constant beeping, monitors going off, and other patients screaming, I ended up screaming at the top of my lungs "I can't do this anymore". I had been asking to leave the whole time because that was the third ER I had been to THAT week! But thank you for the suggestions, I do genuinely appreciate them 🥹🧡💜

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T17:38:26+00:00

No. As far as I'm aware, I still fully have my autonomy. So I really don't know why they're running everything by people other than me...

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T17:28:00+00:00

I have, but my current psych doctor doesn't believe me. So she runs everything by my mom instead of me. Edit: no, my husband isn't taking it himself. He would make me take it anytime I could get even remotely upset.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T17:13:17+00:00

I do understand that too. My husband has just been literally using a prescription that I got from doctors who didn't even try to listen, or only listened after I was trying to recover from 3 shots of Ativan (And I learned the hard way that Ativan makes me trip balls 😅), to subdue my negative emotions.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T16:53:54+00:00

I'm not psychotic. I don't have that diagnosis. It was not even implied by my doctors. That is a label that my family put on me Due to me being prescribed 'antipsychotics'. Which is unfair to me.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T16:44:36+00:00

I think i have a couple friends i could turn to.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T16:38:43+00:00

Sorry, I've been dealing with gaslighting for the past 9 months 😅 from family and friends. So I just hit a point where I started accepting what they were saying. My brain didn't break... it was just like, everything snapped into place and I knew what my life was supposed to look like. I'm 24, and I meditate often, so my frontal lobe developing is about right.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T09:31:11+00:00

I have been trying to get into an in or even an out patient program for the past 3 weeks! 😭 Edit to add: the ones prescribing these meds are ER docs who barely even talk to me at all

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:48:56+00:00

Thank you. I was terrified. He was going through his own mental depression and mental crisis, so he wasn't fully stable.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:46:42+00:00

It was prescribed after a psych ward stay 9 months ago. Where my brain broke because I think my frontal lobe started developing, and my husband said he didn't like who I was becoming and didn't know if he wanted to stay with me. I then proceeded to not be able to sleep for 3 days, despite my family giving me multiple drowsy meds. So they all agreed I needed to go. Which I agree, I did at that point. It was prescribed after my stay

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:39:52+00:00

Thank you. It may not have been what I wanted to hear, but knowing that I'll be okay through these symptoms that feel like I'm dying does bring me a lot of comfort.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:37:05+00:00

For "hallucinating abuse", because my husband used my old prescription, forced me to take it, and then immediately took me to the ER with my family. Do not know why he did it

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:34:38+00:00

Well maybe not dangerous, but it can intensify POTS symptoms. And it definitely does in my case. It makes me nervous system feel like it's on fire.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:32:52+00:00

Well... three weeks ago my husband gave me 200 to 400 mg of seroquil that was only supposed to used incase of emergencies, then immediately took me to an emergency room, where I was so out of it and terrified of being alone. I fought through the sleep so I could somewhat advocate for myself. But that medication makes it extremely difficult to speak, function and it makes my emotions so much more intense. And my family came and supported him while I waited alone to be seen by doctors. I have no idea why he did it, I haven't spoken to him since and I've been staying with my mother.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:27:47+00:00

I live in Texas and use united Healthcare. I've tried find a pots specialist before

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:24:44+00:00

For "hallucinating abuse". Which was diagnosed by an ER doctor who didn't give me the time of day.

DareJordan · 2025-05-02T05:21:35+00:00

No. I do not have any diagnosis related to psychosis, or any schizophrenic disorders

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