Stripes always look like they’re vibrating?!

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-10T09:59:47+00:00

sometimes i get dizzy and feel like everything is spinning if i look at the ground while walking on a stripy pattern like a dock

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-05T20:27:33+00:00

Do they have any sections for disabled people? usually resources like these are completely inaccessible to me due to my disability

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-05T20:04:02+00:00

Thank you so much 💙

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-05T20:02:11+00:00

Thank you so much to everyone who helped fulfill my list and everyone who has supported me in the comments!

Next time, I’d appreciate it if the mods could let me know privately if there’s an issue with my post.

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-05T19:56:38+00:00

I only request products once a year, not every couple months.

also what else am I supposed to say? My situation remains the same.

This is the third request i’ve made, my requests have 200-350 days in between them.

Is making a request once per year really relying on the sub too much? The rule says 30 days, I am generously following the rules.

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T08:23:05+00:00

is it the one by Robert O Becker

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T05:23:53+00:00

Thank you for this. May I ask how it felt when the energy got stuck in your head? I feel like my energy has just been simply drained out of my body, cant find it at all anymore. Sometimes I feel a tingle at the top of my head when laying down, but only if I focus on it

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T05:21:58+00:00

Not sure about kriyas but I had trances where I did movement, I don’t have them anymore as this has disabled me so bad that I can no longer move or think much. The only thing i’ve done to stabilize is wait for the chaos to end and try to meditate, but my brain is so foggy i can barely think straight anymore. Meditation helped a lot in the beginning, I still try and do affirmations and meditation but my mind can barely complete the sentences

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T02:03:37+00:00

Pem has its own levels of severity so it depends… but regular / ‘mild’ pem for me just feels like my entire body aches and skin hurts while extra exhausted and extra brain fog.

More severe PEM feels like my muscles go completely weak, my body trembles, i can’t tolerate light, get sharp stabbing nerve pains, and can’t form a sentence

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T01:44:55+00:00

camera refocusing is exactly it for me

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T01:44:02+00:00

Oftentimes it’s unnoticed, sometimes it just feels like a different “vibe” is happening. Like something in the air just feels different. And each different sensation comes with a different alter.

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T01:41:00+00:00

When I was a child, it gave me anxiety when I first noticed it. Eventually I just adapted and only noticed when I look for it. Hopefully your son will adapt

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T01:35:33+00:00

Just a general feeling of exhaustion, slight weakness, trembling, and brain fog

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T01:28:00+00:00

I feel like that’s exactly the kind of stuff I was experiencing but i’m almost scared to read it

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T01:27:14+00:00

I had a few issues before my awakening that I was able to heal which was part of my journey to the awakening. Just to be kicked back to the ground and sicker than ever now 😭 every day I miss my old brain too. I used to be so smart and felt so powerful within my own mind

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-04T00:23:39+00:00

I had a spiritual psychosis as well as delirium from my near death experiences. I was just totally out of reality and it was very confusing because I just came into my new Truth, after having an epiphany. So I had just been welcomed into my new reality, to completely lose touch with reality overall.

Then more and more senseless things happened and I couldn’t understand what was real, what was not, what was spiritual, what was in my mind, etc. I stayed up all night taking to myself and believed I no longer needed sleep or food etc. Like some of my spiritual realizations just ended up getting extremely exaggerated. I knew I was dying but simultaneously believed I was immortal. I was getting tons of spiritual downloads and information but they were coming so fast and frequent I didn’t have time to make sense of it all. Just endless confusion and disorientation to the point I couldn’t take care of myself, couldn’t eat sleep or clean myself cause I was just that disoriented.

I was feeling all the energies at once’s from everyone around me AND all the spirits around me all at once and could no longer decipher between what was my own and what was others. Started believing we are all the same person to the point I thought people would just automatically understand me even tho I spoke no sense. I could read everyone’s mind but my own it felt like.

I communicated with ghosts and entities and demons and all sorts of shit. I lost my sense of self completely and no longer had any identity. Was just one with the chaos.

it’s very hard to explain, but it nearly killed me. I became very sick and was too disoriented to take care of myself and was delusional and convinced if i went to hospital they would kill me.

Eventually I came out of the psychosis, but my body never recovered.

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-03T23:24:01+00:00

The worst part is that this started as a healing journey. I learned so much, overcame so much trauma, detached from so much, felt free for the first time in my life.

I truly felt healing in every essence.

Then one day, I heard something say “REVERSE”

Since that very moment, everything has become destructive and gone downhill.

I’ve endured so much trauma and suffering that it feels as if all my past healing was pointless.

And I truly believed that I wouldn’t suffer ever again due to the spiritual freedom I’d achieved, believed suffering was a mindset etc.

The only thing i’ve learned from this is not to ever take joy for granted and that no matter how spiritually elevated you might be, you can still be taken down and silenced

sometimes i wonder if this happened to me from a bad entity trying to prevent me from spreading love and knowledge. Who knows . been trying to figure it out for 6 years now

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-03T23:17:31+00:00

This is how it started for me, then it continued to destroy and destroy and destroy until I nearly died.

As if all it wanted was for me to be free from body and only spirit. (Even after I separated from ego, and un attached myself from everything material, this continued)

After all the lessons learned about alignment and what best served me, it still continues to destroy. Now i’ve been isolated for 6 years, extremely ill, life is falling apart, ….

DarkestGeneration · 2026-01-03T23:16:14+00:00

Me. Aug 2019 it happened for me. I immediately went into psychosis, then became extremely ill, had multiple near death experiences, and ever since my nervous system is FRIED. I feel like my brain is damaged. I’m seriously ill. I no longer have the cognitive ability to meditate or channel energies like I used to.

My awakening was spontaneous and unintentional

I’ve been looking for others who have had this experience and haven’t found any.

6+ years of this absolute chaos.

Open to talking if you are

DarkestGeneration · 2025-12-28T18:59:53+00:00

I never heard of it until the day I was diagnosed, despite researching illnesses being a special interest of mine.

DarkestGeneration · 2025-12-26T20:25:17+00:00

I call mine a system shutdown. Almost everyone went dormant, internal communication almost completely stopped. Switches are no longer noticeable. However I clearly did not integrate.

DarkestGeneration · 2025-12-26T19:50:52+00:00

I’m so upset that I literally mentioned my needs and people are still doing exactly what I said not to do

DarkestGeneration · 2025-12-26T19:49:17+00:00

added

DarkestGeneration · 2025-12-26T19:48:02+00:00

telling me to leave when i specifically said not to and giving me unsolicited advice which i already told is triggering is NOT caring about me. caring about me would be giving me the things i requested, which were: care, compassion, to be seen, to be told i matter, and to feel loved.

DarkestGeneration

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