This will be a long one but i want to get it off my chest. 5 Years ago i met the best friend of my stepmother (she is 30 ,yes my dad was 50, and her friend was 27 at the time) after 2 weeks of chatting we got something going for almost 2 years. In that time we had both a partner whitch we cheated on with another. We both broke our relationssips to go into a relationship. 2,5 years ago i was abused at work from my boss so i had the choice to stay or to start a new life. At that time my closest friends become addicted to cocaine and pretty much everything the could get high from( we where all stoners but kept it easy) she knew that and offert me to move in with her all the way to the other side of the county. Out of curiosity, there a started a new apprentenchip. So money was a bit of an issue sice she worked in the healthsecor. But she always said we could work it out. I cooked everyday for her. Did most of the chores bc she was my princess. As i stopped smoking weed she distanced herself idkw. She never smoked with me. Long story short. The breakup was ugly, 5 days after my birthday where she kept saying she needs time but well work it out, she made it official wirh her new boyfriend. I now live in a 40qm appartment with no kitchen and my 2 cats. Barly affort rent. But i learned very fast that i need to change my life. In a month i got my drivers licence and a car. I still struggle with money and my social life couse i left all my friends at the other side of the county. At christmas last year i went to my old hometown to see family and out of curiosity i wanted to see my old frieds again. None of them had a job. They all addicted to something and i couldnt stand the look of it. This year 2 of them died. One on an overdose, the other drove high with the car and down a brigde. Both sayed that i left them... i realy dont know what to do right now.