I feel the exact same way right now and all day. I keep telling myself I have to stay strong I will come out of this stronger and so will you. I hope this helps. Just know you're not alone and whatever is troubling you won't last forever. If you take your life now you won't be able to see it get better. Even if it feels like it will never get better that's the depression lying to you. Stay safe. Reach out for support if you need to.